Blessings: It’s the people not the outcome

After moving into this house, we realize that there were a lot of things wrong with it. My father didn’t like it because it was far to open in the backyard. He was a military guy and so having a yard exposed to a main road with a shady store behind it, and no fence for protection really bothered him. He really didn’t like the layout of the house either. He was a particular guy.I always understood my father and the things that he said because I always try to visualize and relate, going into another person when they’re speaking rather than just only listening. When he was dying he had me by him a Ryobi drill set. I thought it was a great gift but I wondered in my mind how he was going to use it since he couldn’t do much of anything anymore. And so I still bought it for him and in the back of my mind I knew he was going to give it to me. Finally, went Christmas came I handed him the huge box with the drill set in it. Right after opening it, he slid it right back to me. He told me: “Merry Christmas, you’ll be needing this”. It’s still bring steers my eyes when I think about it. He was right. I am both man and woman of the house. I have to always fix everything and this drill set really came in handy.

It’s true we had a lot of problems with the heater, back puff coming in through the ventilation system, and so many other issues overtime that I couldn’t fix. It was becoming costly and on top of many other things that I had gone through from the time that my father passed up until now, I realize just how much parents really do for their children. But it was my turn now, and I was excited to be the head of the household and provider. But admittedly, it was more to bite off than I could chew. Recently, our central air conditioning unit broke down. It was not so bad the first time that happened because it was not as hot, but it was still pretty humid. My mother and I pitched in together to pay for someone to come out and fix it. However, they weren’t honest and ended up ripping us off because they made us pay $300 for a part that isn’t even available for that particular unit anymore because of how old it is, plus $70 for the consultation and another $150 for the supposed labor of fixing it. It’s a shame what people will do to other people to earn a buck. And so while it was rigged to work for a little while longer in order to make it look as if it were fix for the time being, the air conditioning unit finally died on us. It’s called a single stage carrier unit and they were made from the 1960s into the 1970s. Unfortunately they don’t sell refrigerant or parts for it as much anymore these days. That’s just my luck LOL.

Looking into trying to replace it with even a better use one that actually still works, it’s too risky. The heating and air-conditioning technician said that it would be a waste of money to buy the same one because it would more than likely break down being so old anyhow. I suppose he’s right. Why would I want to spend $500 buying the same unit, only for the old thing to break down soon anyway? Asking him how much it would cost to get a new one, he told me and my mother that it would be anywhere from $7000, to $10,000. We have enough bills already, but we were desperate to put the air back on for the sake of my mothers health with her being elderly, and for the little ones.The heating and air-conditioning technician said that it would be a waste of money to buy the same one because it would more than likely break down being so old anyhow. I suppose he’s right. Why would I want to spend $500 buying the same unit, only for the old thing to break down soon anyway? Asking him how much it would cost to get a new one, he told me and my mother that it would be anywhere from $7000, to $10,000. We have enough bills already, but we were desperate to put the air back on for the sake of my mothers health with her being elderly, and for the little ones. It’s known that the very young and elderly as well, both have more of a chance dying from heat stroke than anyone else. Therefore, my mother and I tried to go for financing as he offered it. He went for the financing options for us, from the cheapest unit at $7870, to the second cheapest which was $10,341. If we didn’t get approved for those two options and it was obvious we would not get approved for any of the more costly ones. It’s known that the very young and elderly as well, both have more of a chance dying from heat stroke than anyone else. Therefore, my mother and I tried to go for financing as he offered it. He went for the financing options for us, from the cheapest unit at $7870, to the second cheapest which was $10,341. If we didn’t get approved for those two options and it was obvious we would not get approved for any of the more costly ones. And so after trying, we just gave up. I went out and bought my mom two fans that she could stick in front of her bed so that she could at least just lay in her bed and relax with the fans blowing on her all day. As for us, I did get a bigger fan for me and the rest of the family but it’s just blowing around hot air.

Looking at the situation, many people would be pretty angry at what they had to experience and go through. my eldest children were getting a bit agitated that’s for sure. I knew of a lot of people in the past that had lost their air conditioner in extreme heat, who had also gotten extremely irritable. But for me, I saw it as an opportunity for a great lesson to be acknowledged. It was a sign to teach my son appreciation and not to take the luxuries of today’s technology for granted. So I figured I would bring back some of the childhood summer fun activities that I used to do to keep cool and so I brought out some of the things necessary for the little ones to do. It wasn’t too bad. I figured I would put up a post about how people don’t have to look at bad situation always as if they are negative. There are positives so many things even if they involve some kind of suffering. And believe me we were suffering through the heat but I found more enjoyment in doing things with my babies then I would have been just staying indoors keeping cool. And trying to provoke that kind of inspiration, the post had inspired compassion as well. One of my students went and organized a little fundraiser for me to get some help.

This is a lie considering it varies from company to company and there’s always a catch.

I wanted to say first of all that I am extremely full of heartfelt gratitude that my friend Preston was compassionate and concerned enough that he started a go fund me to put in a new central air conditioning unit. We’ve been struggling over here with excruciating heat for a couple of weeks and the other day I was getting so faint I thought I was going to pass out. The little ones were crying and really agitated by the heat but we tried to do the best that we could by finding other means of staying cool. I wasn’t angry or upset and I certainly felt that all things happen for a reason. I have always appreciated that we had central air in this home. We moved here at the end of 2016.

Growing up I lived in a house that was over 200 years old and we never had any air conditioner. Not even the window kind. We were extremely hot all of the time and the smell of the old house is it in this heat it up really added to the discomfort. Even though this experience presently has been a painful experience to go through, we have had a lot of fun doing other things like water balloon fights, getting wet with the sprinkler or hose, getting the kids to swim in a kiddie pool, and also eating tons of freeze pops LOL

I wish things were affordable for every person.

The sun is a very difficult thing for me to bear with because of my psychic energy. I can’t even go outside at a certain time, let alone be in direct heat like that and so it was really hard on me for my work and for other visions that the heavens were trying to channel through. Seeing that someone tried to fundraise for me without me even having to ask, brought tears to my eyes because I don’t really have a lot of people in my physical life that care about me. I really feel bad about it though, because I know there are other people out there without air conditioner and I don’t feel any more important than they are. I wish that I had millions of dollars only to be able to fix everybody else’s problems. I would heal every single sick person, and provide a home for every homeless person if I could. I never wanted anyone to feel badly at the face that I am getting help and they aren’t . And so I hope I truly didn’t hurt anybody’s feelings by accepting the fundraiser.

The Outcome, and the real blessing

Doing some research I found out that the system itself is so old and it was all installed at the same exact time. That means that the ventilation system etc, is all from the 1970s. They are suggesting everything get replaced. I was looking at a lot of different prices and I found that it’ll cost $3000 or more just to have it all installed. Then the air-conditioning unit itself will cost about $1500-$3200. I figure I’m pretty much out of luck when it comes to replacing this thing unless by a miracle I end up getting enough money raised up to cover all of the costs. but in my heart I felt as though the real blessing was in the people. Sometimes it’s not really about having the entire situation figured out or fixed. The miracle comes in just the fact that there are people that care a lot about you and are willing to do anything to protect you and keep you safe. As I said, I don’t really have a lot of people in my own life that care about me. It’s just my kids and my mom left in my family really. It was more reassuring to see that people cared about the situation that I was going through, then actually having the problem repaired and getting out of this heat. I never really did ask for the help anyway but to know that people have the heart enough to come up with the thought of helping someone in their own mind, shows that there are really truly good people so left in this world. I’m very lucky that I have a friend who is always contributing it’s my life by means of helping me. I’ll never forget all of the wonderful things that that person does for me either. But just seeing my group come together as a family, really showed me that people that haven’t even met each other in person can still love each other even more so than blood relatives do that you spent your entire life with. And it also reminded me that even though my father may not be here anymore, that I’m not utterly all on my own here. The true miracle and blessings are found in the people that I have in my life and the fact that they are beautiful souls at that.

I just wanted to say thank you to Preston personally for coming up with the idea for the fundraiser and for all of the people that contributed. If it continues, I’ll wait and see where it goes. If I ever get enough raised up to fix the central air conditioning unit and there’s some left over, I’ll kindly donate it to others that I know of that are having air-conditioning issues as well.

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