If any of you have been ordering healings from my website sporadically and noticed they’re not as potent or long-lasting as before, there’s a profound reason rooted in the shifting dynamics of our world.
I’ve discussed this in earlier blogs here and on my official site, warning that post-Passover, a major energetic transition would occur. This isn’t just a casual observation, it’s a convergence of scientific, metaphysical, and spiritual forces reshaping human vibrations. Let me explain deeply into this, layer by layer, to give you a comprehensive understanding of why maintenance is key and how you can reclaim that efficacy.
First, consider the energy shift itself. Scientifically, our planet is undergoing rapid atmospheric and societal changes that directly impact human biology and psychology. Climate change, for instance, amplifies greenhouse gases like carbon dioxide, altering Earth’s energy balance and leading to extreme weather events such as heat waves, droughts, and storms.
These environmental stressors influence our bioelectric fields, think of the human body as a conductor of electromagnetic energy, where pollution and temperature fluctuations can disrupt cellular communication and hormone regulation, fostering heavier “vibrations” akin to increased stress and inflammation. Societally, the rise in air pollution from energy sources contributes to respiratory issues and mental health declines, weighing down our natural vitality. Metaphysically, this manifests as a densification of collective energy fields; the Earth’s aura, much like our own, is bombarded by lower-frequency vibrations from human discord, technology overload, and geomagnetic shifts, pulling individuals into heavier states.
Spiritually, this aligns with prophetic timelines where “darker forces”, symbolizing ego-driven chaos or karmic cycles, accelerate these changes, diverging from divine harmony and forcing souls to adapt or descend into lower consciousness.
Now, why do infrequent healings fall short? If you’re only getting one every few months without upkeep, the effects don’t compound. Scientifically, energy healing like quantum modalities can stimulate biofields, reducing pain and edema through mechanisms like pulsed electromagnetic fields (PEMF), which penetrate tissues to promote wound healing and cellular repair.
However, without repetition, these benefits fade as the body’s homeostasis resets amid daily stressors—much like how a single therapy session might offer temporary relief via placebo or endorphin release, but lacks the cumulative neural rewiring for lasting change.
Metaphysically, healings infuse your aura with higher vibrations, but gaps allow atmospheric energies, think wavelengths in the air carrying collective negativity to erode them, as our energy fields are porous and interactive. Spiritually, each healing builds on the last by strengthening soul ties; when spaced too far, the angelic essence I channel dissipates, unable to anchor against worldly pulls that override spirit with material concerns.
To visualize this, here’s a diagram illustrating the layers of the human aura, showing how these energy fields surround and interact with our physical form:
Notice how the etheric, emotional, and mental layers can be influenced by external vibrations if not maintained.
You can’t expect one service to fix everything permanently. Quantum healing, for example, taps into subatomic levels where thoughts and intentions might influence energy states, though scientific evidence is mixed, some studies suggest biofield therapies advance understanding of pain relief and mental health, while skeptics note a lack of conclusive proof for direct cures.
It feels good initially because it aligns your quantum field, potentially via entanglement principles where distant energies connect, but daily exposures to coworkers’ stress energies or electromagnetic pollution from devices counteract it.
Metaphysically, as I’ve taught, everything vibrates in wavelengths; without renewing your protective grids, sacred geometric patterns that shield your aura, these intrusions create spiritual ties that drain vitality.
Spiritually, this is about staying fused with angelic light, which deflects lower entities; without it, reality’s illusions penetrate, dimming your heavenly presence.
Here’s an illustration of quantum energy healing and vibrational fields, depicting how these subtle energies might interact at a subatomic level:
Reflect on your early spiritual enthusiasm, healings lasted because you were actively engaged. Scientifically, consistent practice builds neuroplasticity, rewiring brain pathways for sustained well-being, much like how music therapy modulates heart rhythms and reduces pain perception through vibrational entrainment. Metaphysically, that zeal kept your aura vibrant, with multiple layers (etheric to causal) aligned and protected. Spiritually, it maintained strong ties to divine sources, allowing my essence infused in each healing, to linger and sustain.
In my healings, I channel not just angelic or spiritual energy, but my own essence, creating a bond. If our connection weakens, that energy doesn’t persist. Scientifically, this mirrors biofield interactions where practitioner-client rapport enhances outcomes, as seen in studies on Reconnective Healing. Metaphysically, auras reflect soul states, and without ongoing fusion, negative vibrations dominate. Spiritually, it’s about overcoming worldly consciousness through service, activating dormant DNA strands via light codes, energetic blueprints that unlock higher awareness and deflect negativity.
To deepen this, view this depiction of angelic light in spiritual energy healing, symbolizing the divine infusion that protects and elevates:
Please, commit to your spiritual care: Maintain dimensional DNA alignment by activating extra strands through meditation and service, fuse with angelic light to sense heavenly deflection of worldly negatives, and pursue quantum atomic healings for holistic body-mind-soul restoration.
Stay immersed in studies to prevent worldly penetration, once it overrides spirit, reconnection demands greater effort. This multifaceted approach ensures healings not only work but transform you profoundly.
Hey everyone, my dear friends, quick update from the heart.
I’m so sorry for my little quiet spell, and I deeply appreciate your patience with me. A few months ago, I lost my trusty iPhone 13 Pro. Oh, what a wonderful device it was, with its amazing camera and those easy editing features that made everything flow so smoothly. Even back then, I faced some challenges: there were echoes and background voices whenever I spoke with my son, who is the only person I usually talk to on the phone, unless I have an appointment which is rare due to my heightened sensitivity.
If you recall, my other phone (13 pro) stopped working the day I bumped my head during the summer. I had gotten dizzy from a vision I had while carrying Adree and Alex’s little pool party tray. I fell and hit the leg of the table. If you remember, I passed out briefly, and Adriel stayed by my side, using the phone to keep herself occupied until I came to. The screen burned out and went dark.
I upgraded to the iPhone 16 SE, and it’s been quite a hassle. Texts and calls from loved ones, like my wonderful best friend and my sweet son Noah, don’t always come through. Some text messages do arrive, but others don’t, and I’m missing calls left and right. I’ve lovingly checked “Do Not Disturb”, airplane mode, and made sure no one’s blocked, and everything looks good, but there’s a strange glitch getting in the way. I’ve even heard from some of you that you’ve texted me for weeks and I haven’t seen a thing. Please know I don’t understand what’s going on either, but I’m hopeful a new phone will help.
I’m not receiving notifications from social media either, so I’m checking messages manually across platforms. There are so many wonderful people, dear reader, and it’s a lot to jump between, some messages don’t even appear, which weighs on my heart.
I use this phone for my work, recording, filming, all the creative things I adore, and calls can disrupt knock me out of the recording, having to start all over. So, I’ve held back from sharing a new number, and asked everyone who dies have it, not to call rabdonly. Texts and calls have always pulled me out of my recordings. It’s a shame, but that’s how it’s been. I can’t afford to have to re-record a 90 minute reading 45 minutes in already. My schedule is too hectic. 
The traffic to my website has felt overwhelming, so I’ve kept my text box small to stay present with those who reach out. I’ve explained that I can’t take calls right now, so people text me at certain times to stay connected. I am ultra-sensitive to phone conversations anyhow, even with the kindest energy. I’m a bit older now and my capacity for it is gentler.
Even my lovely children know not to call me on the phone, but Noah is away with Lindsey. I treasure our nightly conversations, so we schedule a time to speak when he’s not visiting. If I don’t call, he calls me, but right now those calls aren’t even coming through. He thought I was mad at him for not answering, and I felt awful explaining that there’s something wrong with my phone.
I’m making do with this imperfect device for now. If you’ve been trying to reach me and it’s been crickets, please know it’s because of the phone.
On top of that, there are some website and classroom glitches: my students can’t move to the next lesson, even though I’ve cleared the hurdles with care. I’ll have my tech-savvy editor friend, a true blessing, look into it.
In the meantime, I’m pushing through with all the love I have to post as many videos as I can to keep things fresh and inspiring. I hope you’re enjoying them and feeling the warmth in every one.
I believe it’s better to post something, than nothing at all, especially when communication is imperfect.
After my father passed and Alexander was born, I went MIA online for a bit to focus on finishing readings, so I paused posting. I also wanted to give people time and space because some misunderstandings arose about my Facebook group and my motivation. I know some people were trying to push the wrong ideas. and again, messages that were supposed to go to one inbox, landed in another, making it hard for me to find where my friends were texting me. It’s happening the same way with my phone and for the life of me I cannot figure out what’s wrong.  I never intend to make anyone feel left out.
I don’t want anyone to feel out of the loop. It’s never intentional, and my heart aches when it seems otherwise. When one thing is fixed, something else can arise, but God is good. He always helps us find a better path, showering us with grace. And I’ve found a solution!
For now, I’m taking messages through my app (which I read with full attention), though there are many, so please bear with me as I get everything fixed. A kind friend offered to help with a new phone, and I’m grateful for that.
I’ll get everything back on track soon and keep our connections strong and full of love.
I’m truly sorry from the bottom of my heart for any mix-ups or frustration. I’m not ignoring anyone on purpose, ever. I can record again and hope to complete some sessions this week, including life coaching clients. I am also working on lessons, and Akasha readings which take a lot to provide, while working two days a week as a filing and data entry assistant at an office.
In the meantime, some notifications, calls, and messages may not connect.
I also want you to know I’ll have an October spell confirmation blog going up soon. Some orders were marked as fulfilled on the website, so please look for your numbers when it’s posted. If you’re due for an upgrade and considering the iPhone 16, please know I don’t recommend it. It’s been fraught with issues for me, and I’ve always had a knack for technology, yet this model hasn’t served me well. If you’re reading this, please don’t spend your money on the 16SE. be honest with you though, since it happens to me a lot, I’m starting to wonder if it’s someone messing around with my devices on the other end of the Internet, or if it’s just my psychic energy that disrupts everything. Talking about this in the “Beyond The Veil” YouTube series, I mentioned how I am a psychic conduit of energy, and it could be that I’m attracting too much of it that it’s interfering with my devices as well. But I think it might be a blend of both.
I should have my new phone tomorrow.
Thank you all for your loving support and understanding. I love you all tons.
This rant is to prove a point, and share my truest intentions.
Recently, I was met with a comment on my YouTube video. And it only hurt my feelings because I had a lot of love and respect for the person that had left it. I know everyone’s entitled to their opinions or their perspective but, I really felt that they had the wrong one.
I am a different person from others, I’m angelic. I don’t belittle people for trying to be too pretty, nor do I judge people if they choose to be ordinary and plain. Because in my eyes, there is no difference.
Everyone is beautiful just being themselves, whether that means that they choose to glam up or glam down. Everyone is beautiful, except those that carry hate in their heart. Now that is something I can say that is not a form of beauty. Deadly sins are not a form of beauty. From jealousy, vanity, being covetous, greedy, stirring, contentions, lust, or wrath. All of those things are ugliness. The video I had made was just pointing out an underlying hidden message that I felt I wanted to share about a certain events that happened to lately, and a small part included the news surrounding a political figure that passed away. I hadn’t said anything negative about the person individually, but I was making some true statements about some things that he had said that perhaps I disagreed with. But I did show compassion for the person’s passing and in that, I was pointing out that our world is changing into a political storm, whereas we should be focusing more on the spiritual quality and essence of life, before the narratives that are being pushed about racism, politics and hatred, become the everyday norm as it seems they are already becoming.
Sure, people miss the hidden point. And perhaps, maybe just because of the title and subject of the video, the video was already pre-judged because of people’s own political feelings. I knew the individual hadn’t even watched the video fully, because if they had, they would not have mentioned “having to skip through because of the graphic nature” because there hadn’t been any graphics. I respect people and their families, and to have anyone harmed in a video, it would be something beyond my taste. But yet, it was nitpicked apart, going from the fact that they thought I was trying to focus on my looks too much, or that I even was experimenting with creative ideas with AI.
I once felt inspired by the same commenter previously, as I hadn’t heard from them in a long time, and back some videos ago they complimented my new creative style. Now, it felt like they were judging. But to question my authenticity really hurt, because even if I did a cruddy job with an experimental editor on the video, my messages are real, the spiritual wisdom deep and original, and my desire to present myself as being glamorous, unchanged.
From the depths of my soul, I’ve was born with Spiritual gifts and since childhood, I had a fierce passion to be a spiritual teacher. I knew it was my purpose to be a vessel for divine connection, blessed with an innate gift to commune with angels. Yet, physically, I was born with platinum blonde hair, piercing blue eyes, and full lips, I resembled my father more in his features, but I resembled my mother in her femininity. Both were blondes as children too. My mom blue eyed.
My appearance? I never originally sought to change it. Why would I?
My mother, she was radiant, and it was her, who shaped my love for elegance. A cosmetics maven with a touch of cosmetology training, she’d rise at dawn, painting her face with artistry, always poised for my father, exuding unshakable confidence whether at the grocery store or a grand event. Her refined aura was magnetic, and I soaked it in.
As a teenager, I yearned to embody that same bold confidence, but on my terms. Some days, I’d weave magic with makeup, adorning myself with gemstones and sparkles that mirrored my vibrant spirit. Other days, I’d embrace the raw beauty of sweatpants and a bare face, fully at ease in my skin. It was always my choice, cosmetics were never a mandate, but a canvas for self-expression.
My figure, with its wider hips and without curves up top, wasn’t always what I dreamed of, but I embraced it as God’s design. This is only a vessel. But in this world the vessel is judged first because the soul is hidden underneath.
Whether I went full glamour or stayed humbly natural, it was not about chasing anyone else’s approval. And yet, some despised my unapologetic confidence. Their judgment? It never dulled my light. My heart, was too full of love and understanding.
Stepping into my spiritual calling demanded more courage that dwarfed any fears about being judged for my appearance. Sharing my angelic connection felt like peeling back my soul, raw and vulnerable.
When I began posting online, I’d sometimes wear anime-inspired makeup for my videos, other times baring my face completely.
Anyone can scroll through my countless Facebook pictures and see, or even look me up on Google, and go back throughout the years and how I’ve always liked to get dressed up for the camera. I believed that cosmetics are a form of artwork and self expression, but I’m not afraid to show myself all natural either, as I’ve proven as well too. Someone really concerned with their looks, wouldn’t really care.
2021
Through it all, I preached one truth to young girls: love yourself fiercely, as you are. Don’t fix what isn’t broken. Express who you are. Be the best version of yourself. Dreams? Chase them, but root them in self-love first. Be unapologetically you, while always striving to be your best.
Look at those rhinestone nails! Very little makeup, and false lashes. 2020
All of my past photos show, I’m the same. Yet, recently the spotlight has fixated on my looks and my use of AI tools. I want to cut through the narratives already being formed and so I wrote this.
Listen, everyone’s using tools to create online now, it’s the world we live in! I’ve been crystal clear that I reject AI for deception, spreading lies, or anything that feels like it’s hijacking humanity. But when wielded with integrity, AI is a revolution.
Anyone and everyone who knows me, knows my “talk to text” has been my enemy when writing or communicating. Editing has always been my weak spot. Years ago, I used to pour my heart into blogs, churning out dozens weekly, typos and all, just to share my truth. That raw passion was pure, unfiltered.
2015
I thought spiritual seekers would embrace the ideas, not nitpick small errors. But criticism came, and now, AI became my ally, using Grammarly, polishing my words while keeping every syllable straight from my heart. My authenticity? Untouched. My presentation? The same, but with more colorful backgrounds and adding visuals to help with telling my story or sharing my message.
2014- A year after launching my Youtube.
From my earliest videos, I’ve been a glamorous force, sometimes speaking in a soft, feminine cadence, sometimes blazing with fiery conviction. Bold makeup and lashes one day, bare-faced vulnerability the next.
2019, no makeup except some leftover liner from earlier in the day. My dad already passed. Can you see it in my eyes?
That’s authenticity, showing every facet of myself without fear.
From 2018- 2020, my father was said to not have long to live. My insights foretold 2019. I was right. So between those years, in pics and videos and a few months after my dad died, the grief was visible in my face like in this 2020 pic. I lost so much weight from not eating.
Yet, the focus keeps circling back to my appearance. I don’t need to defend myself.
I’m making a point.
People see only what they want to see, when they want to see it. How come nobody ever mentioned my make up and videos before? I’ve always acted the same?
I stand for women everywhere. As a spiritualist, an ordained minister, and a psychology graduate, I find it degrading that a woman’s authenticity is questioned just for embracing glamour, especially when it’s other women wielding the critique. They, of all people, should understand the desire to present yourself beautifully, to feel vibrant and true without hiding. Still, the harsh words fly under the radar. Not only through that YouTube comment, such as the one that was left, but there were even hateful letters that were sent out to my students, focusing on my appearance. Just because everyone else out there in the world is changing their face, doesn’t mean that I have too!
I was open about the only changes that I have made, and why. I can’t understand why people can’t see why it was necessary in some aspects medically? But my focus on make up? That’s always been there.
It’s already been hard enough for me to build my brand or to get anywhere in trying to get my message out there. I was blessed to find a few new friends who wanted to help with working with me on different ideas on how to present my videos.
Those people suggested using AI visuals and colorful backgrounds. But me? I am still the same exact person in the video, looks, message, and love. Just because one time, I used an AI generated version of myself to get a video done quickly, doesn’t rob me up my realness. It’s shows a busy person, who is doing their best to make things work.
I’ve never hidden my journey. After four children, three C-sections, and hernias, my body bore the scars of creation. I wasn’t embarrassed by them, but hernias were painful and my stomach damaged. In my 40s, I chose to reclaim the form I always envisioned, not for anyone else, but for me. I shared this openly in a raw blog and video, explaining how pregnancy ravaged my body, and how, if I was going to heal, I’d go all in to sculpt my dream silhouette. I found it so strange that I had just posted a heartfelt video just prior to the criticized one, explaining my true intentions.
Yet, the comment was still left? Almost as if my story, my being open about my personal struggles in my journey didn’t matter? Why are people trying to paint me in this new negative way?
Out of respect, I’ve filmed from the shoulders up, keeping it classy, setting an example. Yet, I’m still judged for my confidence? My appearance doesn’t define my soul.
2022, getting back to myself healing from grief, three hernias, and two recent c-sections at the time within those few years.
Why does society insist a virtuous woman can’t also be sexy? This outdated notion, that goodness, integrity, and kindness can’t coexist with allure, is absurd. It’s rooted in rigid traditions, religious dogma, or media’s false dichotomy of “pure” versus “seductive.” I reject that. I’m not using my appearance to lure men or try to seduce anyone. I’m just trying to look beautiful for myself and feel confident. And that’s modesty.
Modesty is when you act with pure intentions. Modesty, to me, is a radiant inner grace that shines through in how you carry yourself, humble in actions and how you treat others, how you speak, being authentic, and grounded in respect for yourself and others. It’s not about hiding your beauty or dimming your light, but about letting your character, kindness, and integrity take center stage. A modest woman can still be confident, even glamorous, rocking a killer outfit or a bare face, as long as her choices reflect self-love and dignity, not a need for external validation.
It’s about knowing that your worth lies in your heart and actions, not just your appearance, and living in a way that uplifts those around you. Modesty is power, not restriction, it’s being unapologetically you, while honoring the divine spark within. And I have always done that!
2015- Two years after launching my Youtube, piercings, colored strands, and matching shadow!
A woman can radiate confidence, charm, and a killer look while embodying virtue. Being sexy doesn’t negate your morals, it’s simply self-expression of a divine feminine. Society needs to shatter these tired stereotypes. And the same goes for women who are overweight, those who don’t wear makeup, who are thin and do, and it should apply no matter the color of their skin. Women should be free to express themselves in any way, as long as it’s classy, for modest and pure reasons, and real.
Life is a canvas, and so are we.
I believe with every fiber of my being that a woman can be classy, sensual, and a divine feminine goddess while radiating righteousness in every thought, word, and deed. My life is a living testament to virtue, those who know me, see it, and my loved ones would stake their hearts on it.
Yet, because I’ve made minor enhancements to heal pregnancy’s toll, my breasts, my stomach, I’m belittled? After over a decade of sharing transformative spiritual teachings, accurate readings, and life-changing courses, a few physical changes eclipse my legacy?
AI in my content? I’ve never shunned it, AI is a tool, not a sin. I’ve been pushing creative boundaries, infusing my videos with vibrant indigo, pink, and gold backgrounds to reflect my soul and build my brand. My older videos? Raw, unpolished, me in a kitchen chair, poor lighting, diving deep into spiritual truths. That rawness was real, but why can’t I evolve?
It’s like I could never make everybody happy. Some people would complain that the audio was too low or too loud, or they would claim that the lighting was too dim. And so I have tried to just step it up a bit and make things more beautiful. I work with an editor, but every creative choice is mine. As a mother of four, running a household, a business, delivering hundreds of readings monthly, healing, coaching, teaching, and creating free content out of pure love, I’m stretched thin.
So, I used AI completely for one entire video to share my message quickly. Normally, I mix it up with my talking and use AI for visuals but for the one I’m referring to, I used AI completely. Instead of praise, I got shade, not just for the tool, but for my looks too. They claimed I care too much about my appearance now, which is nonsense. My old Facebook posts prove, I’ve always embraced glamour.
Trauma and grief aged me for a time, but through spiritual healing, a healthy diet, and a touch of weight gain, I’m glowing again. Why is confidence a crime?
AI is just a storytelling tool, amplifying my ability to share profound truths with clarity and flair. Criticizing my authenticity for experimenting, or embracing my vibrance really hurt.
I send love to those who judge, I hold no grudges, only compassion. I believe in the beauty of women, enhanced or natural. If someone’s face was scarred by fire, wouldn’t they seek healing?
I’m aging, and while you can’t hide time, you can age with grace. My surgeries were necessities, not vanities, born from pregnancy’s toll. Accusations of Botox or fillers though? Those are falsehoods. My lips are mine! You can check my childhood photos.
Born with full lips!
I use brightening filters because my home’s lighting is dim, but I don’t owe explanations. I choose to share because I live authentically, speaking from my heart when moved.
My mother taught me: if you have nothing kind to say, say nothing. Why tear someone down over their glow or tools used, when the world is drowning in real pain, murders, atrocities, suffering?
To those who judge, I ask: why fixate on the superficial when Jesus himself said, “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” (Matthew 7:3).
Virtue shines in how we treat others, the choices we make, the kindness we embody, not in our makeup or creative tools. To question my integrity over my confidence or my use of AI to try something new, reveals more about the critics than me.
I feel a deep sadness living in a world where genuine connection and understanding seem scarce. People today are quick to criticize over trivial matters, often missing what truly matters.
Recently, I saw people celebrating the death of the political speaker that I made the video on. Though I disagreed with much of what he said, I couldn’t fathom rejoicing in someone’s passing. How can anyone? Yet, this reflects the society we’re in.
Why do people resort to cruelty or superficial judgments instead of seeking deeper understanding? Whatever happened to the spiritual principle I’ve always taught, that everyone has their own unique story? We don’t always know the struggles others have faced. Where is the empathy, the compassion?
By openly sharing my own story, I strived to be authentic and show I care, not for others’ opinions, but to create mutual respect and prevent misunderstandings. I wanted people to know me, to know my truth.
I have a deep love for people, always celebrating their joys and never tearing anyone down. If we disagree, I acknowledge it respectfully without criticism or debate.
Scripture warned us of these times when mindsets would shift, even among those who once claimed deep spirituality. But spirituality isn’t a trend, as I’ve shared in my videos and blogs. It’s a way of life, a state of being that comes from within, not from fleeting opinions. It requires the courage to look deeper into the heart.
To my supporters, I’m endlessly grateful. I stand unwavering in my principles of virtue, righteousness, and strength, believing women can embody glamour, class, and divine elegance, as long as it’s of used for the wrong reasons or that they act out of righteousness.
I’d never use AI for deceit or depict violence, except to respectfully educate about victims.
I’m thankful for those who defended me, seeing I’m just a busy woman sharing my heart. That one AI-assisted video wasn’t my finest, but I was juggling projects and felt compelled to share predictions about tragedies like Charlie Kirk’s death and the Ukrainian girl’s passing. I mourned for them, editing out graphic details to honor their families. Social media shouldn’t amplify violence, it’s a heartless trend. Despite disagreements with Kirk’s views, I’d never wish harm on anyone. My videos aimed to uncover deeper truths beneath these events, offering insights into the future with respect and love. But even with that, we live in a place where even families are divided because of opinion. My niece is a liberal, and is a lesbian. I don’t judge her political views, even if we share different views. I love her, no matter what.
But just because my daughter expressed condolences towards Charlie Kirk’s death, she was deleted as a friend on social media, by my niece? We don’t have to agree on things, and just because we feel badly about something that happens, doesn’t mean that we support the person or what they represented. It just shows sympathy which is what society is lacking. And if I don’t agree with something that somebody represented, doesn’t mean that I’m going to show hatred myself. That was the message that I was trying to convey in the video.
People everywhere are being misguided by the agenda and propaganda today, to be divided. And everyone is falling into it. And the comment that I received on the video just went on to prove my point even more, that people look at the wrong things. Or they’re not looking more deeply beneath the surface before they express themselves.
This world is fracturing, hatred festers, dividing humanity over politics, religion, race. Kirk once called empathy a “sin” and a “doorway to the occult.” I couldn’t disagree more. Empathy is the heartbeat of humanity.
In my 2019 blog In The Dark and YouTube’s Indoor Generation, I foresaw a world forced indoors, stripped of compassion, divided by a global agenda. The pandemic and isolation I predicted came true, desensitizing us, fueling chaos. My courses and book hold these truths, but do people want to hear them? Would they rather focus on the fact that I’m wearing some make up to look more presentable in my video or that I am trying to be a little more creative? Or focus on the spiritual message instead? What’s more important? The message or the surface judgment?
Does society prefer blindness, lashing out, even killing over differences? Is this the world we want for our children?
I miss the kindness of the ‘90s, when people held their tongues and hearts were softer. Even back throughout time, there has always been violence, and a lot of the crime that we see today, has been there to some degree. Only social media amplifies it more. And on purpose. And yes, it has increased in numbers, the amount of crimes and murders that are taking place today as social media continues to push this picture toward people. It insights anger, aggression, and violence in ways that people aren’t seeing clearly.
I saw this storm coming, but one voice, mine, struggles against deliberate silencing, judged for my appearance or tools. I pour my soul into every one of my videos in the past, but today the platform is changing. And so I’m working harder to make the content a little more updated, choosing each image, clip, and topic with care to share deeper truths.
See me, not the version you want to judge.
To every woman reading this: you are a masterpiece, flaws and all. Love yourself fiercely. If something’s broken, fix it without shame, but don’t alter what’s already perfect. My surgeries healed the wreckage of childbirth, and I’m at peace with God. He knows my journey. My visions and teachings deep, real.
Let’s focus on what matters: uplifting each other, seeing hearts, not surfaces. The world is crumbling, don’t add to the noise with judgment. Let’s spread love, empathy, and truth instead.
Can people just be happy for me? I am finally able to create better content, and I’m feeling a lot better these days. Its been a rough few years. for goodness sake, I lost my entire family. My grandfather, my uncles, my own father, all within a year in 2019. Then I had two new children, two C-sections, three hernias, four home floodings, and the loss of three of my students due their passing away within 2017-2023. I have my teachings stolen from me, and people leave me behind once they take what they want from me. And I shared every bit of my personal life openly online, the entire way.
If that’s not authenticity on top of the truth that I’ve taught, with legit predictions that I’ve made for years added to that, then I don’t know what is.
Look, I am who I am. I’m me.
But just for the sake of proving it, every photo that I have shared here from the past, still reflects the same exact beauty that I display today. There’s no difference. And, my lips are the same size too! I have always said that it’s beauty that comes from within and no matter how we choose to appear on the outside shouldn’t change who we are on the inside. But the beauty inside generally reflects it even more greatly externally.
Be confident in who you are, no matter who that is. Please never be afraid to grow or evolve.
With that, I’m good with God. I just want things to be good with my remaining followers and friends. I just want my followers to not fall into the new narrative that a few people have tried to circulate. Especially people that haven’t been around in years, or those that are only just arriving.
But I will never allow anyone to tarnish my authenticity or my reputation. It’s OK that perhaps maybe on the surface that’s what they may have thought and I’m forgiving. I send the individual love. But it did hurt my heart a lot as they should’ve known better. It’s not fair to judge the surface. If they didn’t like the AI used in the video that’s fine, I didn’t personally like the way that it turned out either.
I’m not focusing on my appearance, more, I have always tried to look beautiful in my videos and photos, and I haven’t changed much over the years except for the things that I have openly discussed with people, and the medical reasons as to why I needed them. My youth is due to healings called cellular rejuvenation, and I have even written about my opinion on fillers and what they actually do to a person’s face. But even if anyone else had them, I don’t judge. There’s definitely a healthier and more spiritual way to reserve your youth through biohacking and rejuvenation healings, but hey, people are free to make their own choices you know? But to me, it’s not a person’s appearance that matters, it’s the soul within and how the carry themselves, the goodness inside, the beauty in loving words that they speak and actions made in wisdom. But a beautiful soul can radiate from within to make a person even more beautiful on the outside too. It’s even more of a package if they have both.
Me today- 2025- Still the same! Just glowing more.
It’s only out of respect for my followers who trust me, that I felt a need to post this, or even add pictures to prove the point. Your respect and your love is valued and cherished so much, that I would go out of my way, such as to do so. I stand by my truth. I’m only trying out the new YouTube thumbnails to spark intrigue and interest, and trying to be more creative with my content. There are so many new styles of YouTube videos out there now, I’m just trying to find my new groove.
In closing, for newcomers, can we please now focus on what really matters? The message that I carry? Life is already been pretty hard on me and trying to teach people spirituality and bring visions that don’t always align with people’s views, has been really hard on me and trying to get my message out there. I’ve had censorship issues, and there are so many others now speaking the same exact messages that I spoke first many years ago, Who are getting somewhere with it. I’m not getting millions of views here, I’m just making humble content with a love of trying new experimental things in order to be more creative while teaching, and that’s really my only intention. I love God with all of my heart and talking about spiritual subjects has always been my deepest passion. And I don’t want judgment ever taking that away from me.
Good morning, everyone! Happy Saturday (June 28, 2025)!
Yet, another diary entry here at “Spiritually Awkward”!😁👍
I will also post this publicly on my official website too. Originally, I had intended to do a Vlog about this very quickly or to even simply type it in a post, but neither of those options would have given me enough time to say what I really want to say. I’m not sure how many people are truly really paying attention anymore, but this is my safe place online where I speak my heart and thoughts. Those who truly follow, will have read this and know what’s going on.
Regarding my last post, I am doing well. For those of you that may have viewed my Instagram or Facebook, I had a little accident. I fell and had a concussion, carrying a tray in from the kids little toddler, swimming pool, just the other day. I realized how beautiful that moment was (although on the surface it was upsetting and at first, painful), and I thought it was important to share my feelings about it. Especially… after I had gotten insights from the angel Jeremiel who consoled me later on, and spoke to me on how life tends to try to knock people down, but in actuality, it really does strengthen us instead. He’s right, it does, doesn’t it?
As you all know, I can obviously heal myself, and I’m OK. However, I’m not currently accepting messages because I’m busy working. Especially on the courses. There’s a lot of deep, heavy information involved, and I want to give it my full focus.
I also want to share that, over the past week or so, I added a new lesson to the Bible course, and there will be another one coming after this weekend. Many of you know I’ve spoken about this being a lifelong journey, so I hope you don’t mind taking things slowly. The information is very profound, and I want to ensure I’m explaining everything clearly. I don’t research, I don’t pre-plan, I actually channel the information.
Afterwards, I put a lot of care into editing it with Grammarly to make sure it’s done properly and honorably before sharing it. Most of my courses are dedicated to the Lord because it’s His knowledge I’m sharing. I especially dedicate the “Bible Untold” course to Him because I know He’s the one who has taught me everything I know.
A New Testament
This Bible course is essentially a new Bible, something inspired by my dear friend Bella, who once told me I should have my own Bible, one written by me. I’m not claiming to be some great God or prophet. I do have prophetic gifts, and I am an Oracle, but I am humble, and I only have ever called myself a mere messenger. Although at times I have referred to myself as a genie. But that’s OK too 🤣. In all, I really am just a humble mouthpiece, here to bring wisdom, miracles, and gifts to those that seek them and believe in them. That’s all. Therefore, I don’t really wanna call it a Bible, but we’ll just use that term for now metaphorically until I can find a better word to call it.
Nevertheless, I created one. The Bible course and another, will both come together to complete it. It’s not for sale or commercial use as of now. In fact, it’s not even done yet! I have another section to add, I’ll explain more in a moment.
The new “Bible” of sorts, will simply be for my people, and any later seekers. My daughter will someday publish it. The goal is for it to be a personal, sacred book, something to hold onto later, long after I’m gone from this earth (when the good Lord has it planned for me), so that when the website classes are no longer managed, everyone can still have a copy.
Obviously, when I am no longer on this earth, nobody will be able to keep the websites up and running for me.
In addition, the tantra course complements this work. When I teach about the true meaning behind the Bible and those hidden truths, the tantra course will guide you on how to truly and genuinely connect with God, live in harmony with His will, and discover your most authentic twin flame soulmate. Not only this, but it’ll bring greater understanding of what those things actually mean. These are deep, profound topics, and everything will be compiled into one set. Again, this isn’t for public sale; it’s meant to be kept as a sacred, personal resource, something heaven ordained long ago.
That said, I will be removing some students. Over the years, I’ve sensed that certain individuals have had bad intentions, or they simply haven’t taken my teachings seriously. There are also those who have abandoned the lessons or lack enough respect to complete even a simple homework assignment that comes with the course. I’ve never asked for homework from any of my courses—except this one.
A Quick Rant
I’m about to go off here, in a loving way.
I want to share here, as I did on Facebook: the Bible course is my heart and soul. I know some people might see me as strange or think I’m mentally unwell because I say I talk to God, but if they just did their research into the predictions I’ve made over the years, they would see that everything I’ve spoken has come true. I’m not here to convince anyone, I’m simply validating that I’ve never tried to lead anyone astray. I’m not a quack.
I’m just a humble messenger, not claiming to be an alien or God. I’m here to deliver insights from above for those who want to explore deeper truths about themselves, about God, and about existence. I didn’t learn all of this from books alone, although I have read the Bible, the Bhagavad Gita, the Vedas, and the Quran. Through my conversations and communication with the Lord throughout my life, He has revealed profound truths to me, about individuals, about the world, and about the deeper meanings of things. My out of body travels, pre-earth knowledge, past life experiences, astral wanderings, and communications with an unnumbered amount of beings from all realms and planes, has educated me also. For this, I’m beyond blessed in this universe. And humbled on this small speck in it, to share it with others here on earth.
My intention was always to humbly share what I’ve received and to support my family financially, nothing more. I’ve never sought fame or wealth. Consider this: look at all the people talking about spirituality, tarot, or preaching Christianity, they often have millions of views because it aligns with certain agendas. I’ve always known my information was far too deep to fit into the mainstream narrative.
There are even people out there discussing aliens and star seeds to get more views, yet they often aren’t speaking genuine truth. They mix some truths with delusions, and the system allows their content because it’s entertaining, even if it’s misleading or false. Some are very convincing, playing along with propaganda, while others are simply irrelevant, bypassed by the system. That’s not a judgment, just an observation.
In all honesty, I’ve seen a lot of content out there, and I recognize that much of it is driven by agendas. I’ve always known I would face suppression. I’ve only ever tried to grow gradually, running a few ads here and there, because it was never about gaining recognition.
It’s hurt me that my teachings haven’t reached as many people as I’d hoped, but I’m truly grateful for those I have reached. I would love to connect with more, humbly, if it’s the Lord’s will. If not, I accept that too.
I may have mentioned this before, but if I had met someone with the knowledge I possess and the ability to foresee the future, watching it all unfold exactly as I predicted, I believe I would have felt a deep sense of loyalty and respect for that person. Not in a cold or distant way, but with genuine honor and admiration. And I don’t say that in a way of being an ego. I just say that out of having confidence and respect for my relationship with God, and what he taught me. Take it, or leave it.
Many of the people who have been part of my courses have shown me a lot of love and respect, and for that, I am truly grateful. Through them, I’ve found true friends. Some know me beyond the internet, they see that I’m a bit quirky and silly, not just a stern spiritual teacher. That playful, lighthearted side is often how heaven channels through me. Otherwise, I’m very childlike and affectionate.
Sometimes, I think this innocence and love can be confusing for others. My genuine, heartfelt nature might come across the wrong way at times. But above all, my relationship with God is everything to me, and I want others who are truly seeking Him to experience that same connection. I don’t want any of this to become a competition over who knows more or who can gather more followers.
Sadly, some people have tried to make it seem like their divine purpose is to deliver spiritual truths, but I believe everyone has their own purpose. Sharing some of what they’ve learned may very well be a part of that purpose, but it shouldn’t be used to overshadow or misrepresent mine.
My goal is simply to serve, humbly and sincerely, without trying to claim ownership over divine knowledge or spiritual insight but to ensure it’s not misrepresented or falling into the wrong hands.
Please know I hold no anger or resentment, I love all of you from the bottom of my heart. I have been so passive already. Now, I have to place some firmness in this respect. The truth is, I’m not a joke, and my work isn’t about money.
My primary purpose is to serve out of love for God and to genuinely help others. I have enough respect for my relationship with Him and my teachings to know when it’s necessary to let certain people go. This doesn’t mean our friendship ends, though they may be upset with me, but I won’t allow my information to be exploited by fake gurus trying to imitate and add falsely to what I’ve shared.
That’s why I’m working on putting these courses into written form.
Back To The Courses
For the Tantra Course, I’ll also include an audio to accompany the lessons so that students can read along if they prefer, along with a hard copy. This is a very important project for me, and I need to focus on completing it.
While I’m still working on other services, my priority is finishing these courses. I’m not intentionally dragging things out; I believe in giving people time, space to catch up, revisit lessons, and compare what they’ve learned with the new Bible course. True students understand that this is a journey that takes time. Studying is deep.
In truth, this isn’t some college curriculum or content factory. It’s a mystery school, and I want to ensure everything is accurate and sacred.
These days, many claim to speak to God or prophesy, but I know in my heart that, while I may not be the only gifted person, many of those now jumping on the prophetic Christian bandwagon weren’t saying half of what I’ve shared over the years. I’m not trying to be rude, these are just facts. I’m simply protecting myself because I take this work seriously. If it had ever been about fame, I wouldn’t care, yet my focus remains on serving God and the truth.
With all of that being said, I’d like to include an excerpt from the tantra course and share what will be covered in the next lesson. It’s quite interesting, and I think you’ll find it valuable.
Tantra- Next Lesson
“Tantra is about maintaining awareness that all parts of yourself are interconnected and functioning together. This idea ties into what I discussed in my previous course, Lightology, where I emphasized the importance of balance. Let me refresh your memory, or if you haven’t taken that course, I’ll briefly introduce the concept so everyone can become familiar with it.
First and foremost, balance is the foundation of everything. Without it, chaos inevitably takes over. Any genuine spiritual teacher will teach the importance of balance, and they must live by it themselves. No matter how much chaos may be happening in their external life or around them, their inner self must remain centered and balanced. This inner harmony allows them to work effectively amidst chaos and to stop its influence from taking over.
The reason I often share my struggles with negativity and the challenges I face isn’t for sympathy; it’s to show that I, like anyone else, encounter real situations. However, as a wise person, I’ve learned how to handle them without letting them tear me down or affect my inner peace.
As an Oracle, I am deeply attuned to all vibrations around me. I can sense energy in everything and everyone, if someone is nervous, I feel that nervousness; if they’re hungry, I sense their hunger; if they’re feeling depressed, I experience that depression. Many people who are highly sensitive or empathy often absorb these vibrations as if they are their own, which can be overwhelming.
The difference between them and me, is that I am aware that these feelings are not mine. I can trace with visions and channeling, further into where they’re coming from, and gain an understanding why, what happened in the past or present, and what may unfold in the future. Because of this, I can offer truthful insights to help others, even from afar. I know exactly what’s happening in their lives.
While an empath might simply pick up on the vibrations of those around them, I do more than that, I receive visions and impressions that come from beyond this world. This connection is extraordinary and intense, making it difficult to maintain a sense of balance when so much is happening simultaneously. On top of that, I face physical situations and external chaos.
Achieving total balance in such chaos can sometimes seem impossible, even for me. But if I, with all my sensitivity and abilities, can find inner harmony amid the turmoil, then so can you. That’s why I share my experiences. I believe that if I can manage to maintain inner peace despite absorbing so much imbalance from the world, my environment, and my personal life, there is a deeper reason behind it.
It all comes down to the knowledge and understanding of God, and my true twin flame. I’ll explain my previous experience with relationships and their meaning, and go into intimate details. After finding your truest twin flame, you will be able to connect deeply with God even more.
That connection allows you to sustain balance and clarity despite the chaos.
Although, for me… my true soul mate may not be who many think, In the next lesson, I’ll share unknown things about my life and reveal not only secret personal truths, but existential truths that will relate to you also. It may shock you!🤫
The course will go into that and who mine truly is, and explains things in an eye opening way about friendships, relationships, God, sacrifice, purity, humbleness, generosity and virtue. Enlightenment!
You may not understand now, but I assure you that Tantra will help you to make sense of it all. This will bring students the sum of understanding for themselves. I know that for many people, it will make sense of a lot of different things, including me, as well as my teachings, and things that I have said and done. It will also bring clarity for your journey, your ultimate soulmate, and bring conclusion to how to operate in this matrix just a little above it, according to heavenly teachings.
Returning to the idea of balance, in my previous courses, I explained how crucial it is to have all aspects of your life in order. When one area is out of sync, it acts like a magnet, drawing energy and focus away from other areas. This creates what I call a “drain,” because the parts of your life that demand more attention and energy will take away from areas where you have less. Over time, these draining areas lead to chaos and imbalance.
In my Indignation course, I described darkness as being like a vacuum, something that constantly pulls and consumes. Darkness and evil are different; darkness itself is simply a vacuum, a magnet that seeks to fill itself. This is where it can turn into something destructive or evil. People who feel the need to continuously fill themselves with something, anything that temporarily makes them feel good, are often trying to fill a void within.
Life works the same way.
When you’re empty inside, you become chaotic and try to fill that emptiness with anything available.
Unfortunately, most of these temporary fixes are not permanent solutions. That’s why many people are so unhappy, they keep jumping from one distraction to another instead of seeking the one thing they truly need: wholeness.
True balance and fulfillment come from God and your twin flame, and when you achieve finding one, you can eventually connect to the other. After that, everything else falls into place”.
To be continued…
Conclusion
This week has been a wild one, but everything fell into place with the angelic message I received after hitting my head and experiencing a concussion. It all comes back to balance.
When I shared about what happened, and over the years, many other challenges I have faced, I know that some people misunderstood the deeper message behind those posts. I’m not trying to portray my life as perfect. My intention is to teach a profound truth that goes beyond the challenges I face. This understanding is crucial for awakening, if anyone is truly committed to that journey.
It’s important to remember that struggles and experiences serve a higher purpose, they’re part of the process of awakening and growth. That’s why I share them with everyone online, not for sympathy, but to reveal the deeper lessons that lie beneath the surface.and being calm, is another huge part of it.
I’m looking forward to the new lessons up ahead. I can’t wait to teach people how to find their true twin flame, to reveal who my truest divine connection is, and show people how to connect with God. Plus, some things in between like nirvana, and prana. It’s all about ascension!
The wisdom is unparalleled.
For now, I just wanted to give everybody these updates and to let everyone know that I am OK. I’m just going to be a little busy working, and I’m always here for all of you if not through communications, through constant prayer and channeling that I do to check in with many of you, even in spirit.
If you are expecting any soul development or life coaching, I will have you set up at the end of this month as promised in my Facebook post. I truly appreciate you all. With all of my heart I love each and every one of you. If you do you happen to be one of the people ejected from my course, please hopefully forgive me with this true guidance and insight. And please know that I’ll still be posting things throughout the week, but otherwise I will not have a phone on me or any other devices around too much, so that I can focus on getting the lessons completed, that I need for the courses, being how important they truly are in more ways than one.
The next course for Tantra will be sometime over the weekend. And again, in the Bible course will come sometime after the weekend.
That’s all! Get your lives ready to forge forward with knowledge and truth. Your twin flame and lifting your sights beyond the matrix await you Tantra students! Bible students, the Bible Untold will lead you there! I truly hope that Bible students will join the Tantra course. If not, that’s OK too. I feel as though, that for anyone that joins, that it was meant for them. Even if I’m only left with one or two people. With that, at least I know that the Lord has chosen and selected those that he feels are going to use the information for the right things in a genuine and sincere way. And therefore, I’ve done my job in the world of helping many people, but also going further as to have even enlightened just a few. Namaste!
Today, I want to share something important that my beloved friend recently pointed out to me, a technique developed by scientists in the medical field aimed at destroying cancer cells. At first glance, it might seem similar to what I do with angelic light therapy, which one of my students also mentioned.
But here’s the truth: they’re still using artificial light. Science, as advanced as it is, doesn’t fully understand the deeper spiritual and energetic nature of cancer the way I do.
From my psychic and spiritual perspective, cancer cells, and other diseases are not simply what they appear to be on the surface. When I work with clients on healing, especially with cancer, I always advise avoiding radiation and chemotherapy, because these methods, while they may destroy some cancer cells, also kill the good cells in your body. This creates a slow, drawn-out cycle of deterioration, weakening the body over time rather than truly healing it.
I have a profound understanding of the body’s spiritual and genetic blueprints. I see beyond the physical, into the energetic and karmic layers, allowing me to not only assist in healing but also in preventing disease before it manifests.
In early stages of cancer, I have developed natural, divine methods that harness heavenly energy to target and eliminate problematic cells. I’ve also performed health readings where I can identify potentially dormant cancer in the genetics, hidden within the Akashic records, cells that lay silent, waiting for a future time. When I see this, I can guide individuals on steps to prevent those cells from ever developing into full-blown disease.
Of course, I recognize that there are certain stages of cancer where healing may be more difficult or impossible, yet, in early stages, I believe there is hope, and I have seen remarkable results with natural, divine intervention.
Dad
Let me share a personal example: my father faced cancer twice. The first time, he had only a 50-50 chance on the operating table. After his surgery, he went through chemo. I was in college back then, so I wasn’t as involved as I wish I could have been. When his cancer seemed to go away, I knew deep down it wasn’t fully gone. And although he survived, I believe that true healing requires a deeper understanding, one that integrates spiritual energy with physical health.
My work is rooted in divine energy, ancestral wisdom, and a deep understanding of the body’s spiritual blueprint. I’m here to help you understand your body’s hidden signals and to guide you on a path toward natural, holistic healing—sometimes even before disease manifests.
Remember, not everyone has the knowledge or integrity to truly help. But I stand here with compassion and truth, ready to assist those seeking genuine healing and prevention.
My father and I used to sit together, doing readings, he would often help me with my work. When things needed to be streamlined and handled with care, he’d sit at the table with me, gently cutting cards during a tarot reading, offering his support and presence. More than anything, he was my biggest supporter.
I used to have a microscope that I loved to play with, just for fun. But my fascination went beyond the physical, looking at people’s blueprint, their atoms, and quantum particles from a psychic level was truly mesmerizing. There are so many particles swirling around us, blending into this collective reality, and I enjoyed magnifying my perspective to see them more clearly. It’s not just about zooming in or out physically, I can do that mentally and spiritually too. I know this might sound crazy, but it’s all real to me.
One day, I decided to look at a drop of my father’s blood under the microscope, just out of curiosity. And what I saw was startling. Floating around in his blood was a cancer cell, an ominous presence that was already there, waiting. I immediately told him, “Your cancer is back.” He didn’t believe me at first because he felt so well, and he’d returned to smoking cigarettes despite the Lord’s warning. I think he was holding onto hope that it wouldn’t come back.
But I could see it, this big cancer cell, drifting and chasing the healthy cells. I told him to get checked. Sure enough, the cancer had returned.
We chose a different path, no chemotherapy. Instead, I began doing angelic light therapy combined with quantum atomic healing. This divine approach helped his body fight and rid itself of the cancer. The doctors were amazed by the results. My father was so proud, he would often tell the doctors, “My daughter helped me.” It was one of the proudest moments of our bond.
Having been healed of cancer was so miraculous for my father that it profoundly transformed his life. Before his healing, he was the kind of person who would see someone begging for money on the street and often believe it was their own problem. He might still buy them a cup of coffee, but he wouldn’t usually give money outright.
After we healed him from cancer, everything changed. He began giving generously to others, supporting those in need in ways he never had before. He and I even visited a woman’s house who was struggling with cancer, and we donated the last of our money to help her family cover their bills. He also participated in a marathon to support my brother’s children who have Down syndrome — something he wouldn’t have normally done, despite being one of the most righteous and generous people I knew.
You could see that his outlook on life shifted dramatically because he felt divine help and healing had touched him. It was as if his experience of being healed opened his heart in new and profound ways, revealing a deeper sense of compassion, gratitude, and purpose. The healing not only restored his body but also renewed his spirit and his capacity to love and give back to others in ways he hadn’t before.
But despite the healing, he had to confront the consequences of his choices. He was advised not to start smoking again, but he did. When you knowingly do what’s wrong, you’re choosing the consequences. As the saying goes, “Live by the sword, die by the sword.” Eventually, the cancer returned again, this time, it turned into bone cancer, and it claimed his life.
Ongoing Miracles
But I didn’t just heal my father. Over the years, I’ve helped many others battling cancer and other issues. I’ve developed personalized biohacking protocols tailored to their unique biology and genetics, combined with healing sessions that read and clear cancer from the body. Did you quantum atomic healing, you have to truly be able to see energy on a quantum level. Not just think you’re conducting it.
I believe in the power of divine light and quantum energy, methods that science has yet to fully understand.
Science, with its current technology, often misunderstands what’s happening at the cellular level. They think they’re simply destroying cancer cells, but what they’re really doing is dividing them into smaller and smaller fragments, hidden, negative imprints that linger in the body. These fragments can eventually reassemble, leading to cancer’s return if not fully addressed.
That’s why I believe in a holistic approach, one rooted in divine energy, spiritual insight, and understanding the true nature of the body’s energetic blueprint. Healing isn’t just about eliminating what’s visible; it’s about transforming the underlying energy that sustains disease.
The only healing that truly works is that which is done through natural, divine energy. It’s not just about applying any energy, it’s about understanding the precise coding of each individual’s disease, especially cancer, tailored specifically to their unique body and genetics. To do this effectively, one must decode the cellular blueprint with the right light frequencies and vibrational energies.
Many holistic practitioners overlook a crucial truth: energy is multifaceted. Some energies are used to draw out toxins or negative imprints, others to infuse healing, some to amplify the body’s natural defenses, and yet others to completely annihilate dis-ease. Each of these processes requires a different vibration, a different frequency, an intricate dance of energy that must be carefully matched to the individual’s unique cellular code.
It’s not enough to just understand the frequency of light or vibration. True healing involves reading and decoding the cellular and energetic blueprint, understanding the language of DNA, atoms, and quantum particles, then matching the appropriate wavelengths and frequencies for each person. Only then can the divine energy harmonize with the body’s natural blueprint to bring about genuine transformation.
This is the sacred art of divine healing, one that combines spiritual insight, scientific understanding, and mastery over vibrational frequencies. When done correctly, it’s not just about fighting disease; it’s about restoring harmony at the deepest level, aligning the physical with the spiritual, and awakening the body’s innate power to heal itself.
Right now, I have a package that I put together. It includes everything that a person with cancer or other illnesses would need in order to find healing or prevent those ailments from developing if in the genes.
I have had the profound privilege of healing many individuals suffering from a variety of acute hereditary and autoimmune conditions. For those living with fibromyalgia, I’ve supported clients through severe flare-ups characterized by widespread pain, fatigue, and sleep disturbances, helping to alleviate their symptoms and restore balance. Similarly, I have worked with individuals diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS), including my daughter in law’s father, aiding in the reduction of neurological flare-ups such as weakness, vision changes, or numbness, and promoting overall nerve health.
I’ve also successfully assisted clients battling arthritis, particularly rheumatoid and psoriatic arthritis, during their sudden episodes of intense joint pain, swelling, and stiffness. Through my holistic and spiritual healing techniques, I’ve helped reduce inflammation and ease discomfort during these flare-ups.
Additionally, I’ve worked with those affected by hepatitis, including acute infections like hepatitis A, B, or C, supporting their body’s natural healing processes during sudden symptomatic episodes like jaundice, fatigue, and abdominal pain.
Many of these autoimmune and hereditary conditions involve episodes of sudden symptom relapses or flare-ups. While conventional medicine often addresses these with medication, medications add more symptoms. For example. My father when he had cancer a very last time, it ended up adding Adkins’s disease and he needed many other medications to help him, which also caused him to develop diabetes. Medicine often adds more problems while trying to fix one.
I’ve found that spiritual energy work, combined with personalized healing plans, can significantly support the body’s ability to balance and recover. I am grateful to have helped many clients experience relief, improved vitality, and a greater sense of harmony amidst these challenging health conditions.
Remember: real healing is divine, precise, and personalized. It requires knowing the code, speaking the language of the cells, and wielding the correct frequency with love, intention, and divine wisdom. And it needs faith and belief. Without faith and belief, it won’t work.
This package is designed both to prevent illnesses and to support healing from existing conditions. It includes two distinct sessions, each consisting of three combined healing techniques that work synergistically to help the body recover and restore balance. The sessions are spaced out over time, with a personalized plan tailored specifically to your body’s needs, which you will follow in between the sessions to maximize results.
If you’re interested, I encourage you to take a closer look. Additionally, if you’re experiencing financial difficulties and find the full price challenging, please don’t hesitate to reach out. I believe no one should suffer from illness, and I am willing to work something out so you can receive the healing support you deserve.
I had intended to include this in a private message to someone that I felt needed to hear it. However, upon writing it, the Lord advised that I should make it a public letter because there are actually many people in need of hearing these very same words. Therefore, here we are.
As you know, I tend to write on this blog, almost as if it’s my public journal. Many of you know many deep and intimate things about me in my life as I’ve been extremely open and transparent to everyone. However, I don’t think that I’ve touched base on my soul contract change much, other than just mentioning that I had changed it. So, I would like to talk about that for a minute. I would have done a video, but I’m working on another topic right now and thought sometimes I’m a little better at expressing things when I write my words out anyhow.
Learning In Life
First, I want to share that I’ll be creating some videos soon where I’ll talk openly about some of the struggles I’ve faced in my life. I feel it’s the right time to do so because I know many of you might have gone through similar experiences. It’s important to embrace all parts of ourselves, especially as we work toward Awakening and preparing ourselves for heaven. Through experience, we gain wisdom—especially if we’ve learned from those experiences. If we don’t learn from our mistakes or lessons, then that’s truly folly.
In some cases, people simply lack guidance and don’t get it the first few times around. And that’s okay, too. Sometimes, individuals take the path of severity on the tree of life, but ultimately, it all depends on where you’re at in your journey. The Lord Himself says that when you’re working on things in your final lifetime—your last opportunity to evolve and ascend—you must work through your karma and fulfill your purpose. Otherwise, the whole journey might seem meaningless.
Yet, even in those moments, it’s still your story—your experience of living, loving, laughing, crying, and even losing. Whether negative or positive, it’s still beautiful and meaningful. But, when it comes to ascending to heaven, we must truly work toward perfecting ourselves. All saints in heaven are perfect—there’s no doubt about that. Anyone claiming otherwise is not being truthful. These beings are high vibrational, filled with divine wisdom because they’ve transcended imperfections and grown through their journey. Their wisdom now guides others throughout the universe.
It’s true that there are many realities and lessons to explore, and while I don’t see Earth as my enemy, I must say it’s probably one of the harshest places. As I mentioned in a previous video, Earth is like a planet that contains all the deadly sins—making it incredibly difficult for souls to transcend lessons here. Many go through lifetime after lifetime, stuck in repetitive patterns, repeating the same mistakes without truly learning. Even when they do learn, selfishness often still rules, and people continue to make the same errors because they want to.
There are those who say they didn’t really want to continue in this way, but if someone knows better and still chooses to act otherwise, then they’re doing what they want—plain and simple. The Lord isn’t judging to condemn; He’s judging to see who’s worthy of ascending. Will the person stay trapped in the 3D world, or will they choose to move upward into higher realms of learning and growth?
As I’ve often taught before, it’s like progressing through school. You start in kindergarten; nobody skips straight to third grade. You need to master each level before moving on. Sure, some people can jump grades, but only if they put in the effort and truly learn what’s necessary at each stage. How can anyone put in that effort on Earth when they’re born without memories of their past lessons? It’s a very tough place to be, and believe me, the rulers of Earth make it that way. That’s why messengers and teachers have always come to light the way for those meant to leave this place.
That doesn’t make anyone better than others—it simply means they’ve transcended the lessons of this particular space. And that’s truly wonderful, because who would want to stay here, right? Which brings me to my next point: staying here.
My Way Out?
Back when I was quite active in my line of work, I shared a deeply personal piece of information with many of my followers—about my eventual departure from Earth. I had spoken openly about the possibility of leaving around the age of 33. I know it’s hard for some to believe, but I don’t need a major accident or catastrophe to leave this Earth when the time comes. The Lord will prepare the way, and that will be it. How He chooses to do so—whether through illness, a car accident, or otherwise—is entirely up to Him. Who can truly decide their own moment of death? I think most would prefer to transition peacefully in their sleep, and I could ask for that blessing, but I also recognize that it might be selfish to do so.
There are so many people who face horrific ways of dying, and I’ve always been mindful of that. Just as I’ve shared with many of you about the trials I face, I’ve also been blessed with countless miracles in my life. But honestly, I’m no different from anyone else. Just because I’m a messenger of the Lord doesn’t mean I’m treated differently or that I don’t face challenges. I have to go through struggles just like everyone else—otherwise, it would be unfair, a sign of favoritism.
Trust me, the Lord blesses me abundantly. When I’m struggling, He finds ways to help. When something goes wrong, He steps in to fix it. And when I can’t do something for myself, others come to my aid. I plan to share many of these miracles in the upcoming videos about my life. But for now, just know that I could have chosen a different path—one that might have been easier or more comfortable—but I didn’t want to be treated any differently. I wanted to walk this earth like anyone else, without selfishness, understanding that many people suffer every day. Why would I want to be made special above others?
The same philosophy applies to my death. Whatever way the Lord wishes for me to leave this life, I will accept it. I won’t make selfish requests about how it happens—I only ask that He be with me afterward. That’s what faith in the Lord is about: carrying your cross, just as Jesus did. Many don’t realize that carrying the cross didn’t just mean accepting death; it also symbolized bearing the burdens of life itself. The cross represents the four directions of this world—north, south, east, and west—and life’s challenges come from all angles. Whether you walk north or south, east or west, you’re here to face those burdens.
If Yeshua/Jesus had to carry his cross and face tribulations, so must we. I’ve worked hard to clear my karmic debts, to learn all the lessons I came to Earth to master, and to fulfill my Earthly and Akashic purposes. These purposes are crucial because they demonstrate that I’ve accomplished what I set out to do here. For me, I didn’t have a choice—because I was sent here as a messenger. I could have run away, hidden, or ignored my calling, but I didn’t. That’s what brings me to my next point.
Fulfilling My Purposes
I am here to make life easier for others. My purpose has always been to provide insights, to prepare everyone for the future, and to ensure that those the Lord intended received knowledge—encouraging them to do their best to improve themselves, find some measure of happiness in this lifetime, and view life with eyes wide open. I believe I’ve done a good job in fulfilling that mission. So, when I was told I would leave around the age of 33, I didn’t mind so much.
However, having faced many hardships in my life, I never truly had the chance to experience the simple joy of being a mother. I’ve had two children before, but my parents lived with me, and as you know, even as a messenger and someone wise, parents are parents. For me, it was a little different with mine because they always treated me as a little innocent angel that they were extremely overprotective with. They help me with my sensitivities, even when it came to school, and I always guided me and my gifts. But because they were always protecting me and sheltering me because of my abilities, I guess that made them feel like they had a right to dominate my life at times. I appreciate their help. I do. But I longed for the opportunity to raise children whom I could teach entirely on my own terms—by my own rules and influence. I wanted to walk a different spiritual path with them, one that I could shape based on my own understanding and experience.
I taught my older children well, but I’ve learned that each person learns differently. Through my own journey, I’ve discovered better ways to awaken and nurture a child early on—methods I couldn’t fully implement when I was younger, with my first two children. So, I wished for a chance to fully embrace motherhood, to raise two more souls who would be awakened, virtuous, and saintly—a legacy of my love and teachings that they could leave behind in this world. And at the time, I was doing pretty well with my work that I thought finally after all of the challenges that I face in life, this was the most perfect time in my life that I could expand my family, and that I’d have the financial resources to do it. Lord had mentioned struggle in the future, but by that time I had hoped to get a lot done in my life to where I’d be situated. Instead, I placed so much focus on helping other people that I hadn’t put so much time into helping myself. Luckily I’ve had good people around me though. 
Nonetheless, I went to the Lord about this, he told me that I had truly suffered a great deal in my life, and that in my earlier experiences or lifetime on earth, previously, I hadn’t really gotten a chance to experience what I truly desired to experience on earth, which was finding true love. It didn’t matter to me how I found it. Maybe just motherhood itself was enough to understand what true love was really about. And believe me, I can truly say today, that it is. There’s nothing more beautiful on earth or anywhere really, than love that is shared between a mother and her children who really do love one another. I always looked to find that kind of love in other people. It’s the kind of love that heaven has for each other, it’s the kind of love that heaven feels for all humanity. Coming to earth, it was my greatest longing to find that type of love here.
But experience after experience, I discovered that it really didn’t exist here. You can imagine love and romance all you want, you can imagine falling in love with your twin flame or some soulmate that enters your life like some fairy tale. And perhaps for some, that can be a reality. But for me, I found true love through being a mother. And I just hadn’t felt that I had experienced enough of that. Yet, the Lord had taught me that motherhood isn’t just about bringing children into the world. It’s about who you leave an impact on as well. Just like soul parents up in heaven play a significant role in guiding your journey, any spiritual guide that has taken responsibility for you and walked you through your life is sort of like a parent.
Therefore, he made it a valid point that true love did exist. It existed through me and the love that I felt for every single person that I had helped. Everybody I cared for, guided in their life, and helped them to make better choices through my insights. But they were all abroad and far away. Even though doing the readings and healings often made them feel like they were right here with me, I just wanted to feel that love and nurturing again—if not with a partner, than by being able to raise new children. That was the only thing I really wanted for myself out of this entire planetary experience, was to find true love in humanity here. That, and being able to help people find God and love themselves.
Expanding My Soul Contract
And so I asked the Lord if I could have a little more time. I asked him if I could be a parent and enjoy my time on earth—nurturing and caring for others, not just new children that I would go on to create, but also through the people they had come to bond with through my work and love. He told me that he didn’t mind if I extended my spiritual contract for more time, but that everything is an even exchange. Being a messenger, I would have to offer him something in return.
I wasn’t even able to have children, to be honest with you, and I didn’t really have anybody to have the children with, even though they came through very upsetting circumstances that I have yet to even talk about or reveal. Perhaps someday.
Still, all things happen the way that they do, good or bad, for a reason. And the kids have been greatest joy aside of the cruelties that I’ve faced.
In that, he told me I could say that I could continue my journey in searching for true love through motherhood, and the love experienced through the lives I’ve touched, if I would in return provide detailed prophetic messages to the world—messages to prepare people for the world changes that we’re about to experience.
At the time, I didn’t think it was that big of a deal, so I agreed. I had already had many visions as a girl, and the future. I already had an idea of what the future was going to end up like.
Seeing now how heavy the messages are, the visions I have to live with, the emotions and impact they make, I see just how much it costs. But that’s okay. I’m super humbled and thankful that the Lord allowed me the opportunity to provide His messages to his people. In exchange for that, I’ve been granted a little more time on earth, a few new loved ones to add to my family, and a continued connection with those I have come to love, meeting them in this spiritual journey.
Back when I was first told that my time here would at the age of 33, going on 34, I didn’t feel I had much left anyhow. I was told my father would pass October 4, 2019, and my older children were growing up quickly, nearing adulthood. My parents were aging, and I knew Dad would pass away soon after I was supposed to leave anyhow. I also hadn’t found love through a partner. Although, I did find companionship in a few friends. In my mind, I accepted not continuing the journey into old age.
Perhaps the Lord was right in His judgment—taking me at 33. That way, my older children would be old enough to stand on their own, I wouldn’t have to witness the loss of my father, and I would have fulfilled my role in guiding those whom the Lord had brought into my life, leaving behind teachings that many could benefit from.
But I decided to change my soul’s contract to live longer anyway. Before, I felt leaving my teachings behind and departing before the chaos in the world intensified was a purpose well accomplished. However, the Lord had made a deal with me: and I could stay longer if I chose, which I did, to have another chance to be a mother and raise some beautiful Saintly souls.
In return, I agreed to carry the weight of relaying the herald’s predictions starting in 2019. You might remember I’ve shared some predictions before, but none on the scale as the angelic messages that began in 2019, before the pandemic and the upheaval we see today.
This extra time I chose, came with a heavy responsibility. I promised the Lord that I would deliver His messages through the Saints to help people be more prepared and insightful about what’s happening around them, and I’m doing it. Believe me, it’s a profound burden to bear.
Why Share Now?
I haven’t shared this with anyone else until now, but I felt it was important to do so.
Why? Because there is a deeper purpose to it all. It’s not just about me. It’s also about you. All of you.
I don’t believe most people realize how important they truly are until someone takes the time to tell them. So, I want to tell you something reader: you have helped me in accomplishing my goals of discovering love on this planet, and helping people find God. The truth is, I haven’t known many truly good people in my journey. Over the years, I’ve encountered con artists, those who have been abusive or manipulative, liers, bullies, and individuals who have taken me for granted. I see evil people a lot in the world in general. Many people I’ve met have prioritized their own needs over others, out of self-interest or selfishness.
When I first stepped into this line of work many years ago, I was afraid. I feared I would face ridicule, or worse, treatment far harsher than what I experienced in my daily life—though not online, but in the physical world. Despite my fears, I courageously opened my heart accepting the purpose I was sent here to do, sharing my beliefs and the lessons I’ve received from the Lord personally. I expected backlash, but surprisingly, I haven’t faced many trials from others. Instead, the Lord has brought wonderful people into my life—people like you—who have touched my heart in ways words can’t fully express.
Even though we don’t speak every day, I think of you often. The healing work I do for you is deeply personal—an act of love and light—and I find myself emotionally and spiritually connected to you, as if you were a cherished family member living right beside me. Because of your presence in my journey, I look forward to each time you come by. I can feel you.
Knowing that you are kind-hearted and striving to be a better person in a world that can often feel cold and harsh has truly lit up my life like a bright beacon.
Even though I may have an awakened viewpoint, doesn’t mean that I don’t sometimes see the negative in life too. Like I said, I’ve seen a lot of ugly things and crossed paths with a lot of mean people. I truly do understand the reason for it everything that happens and the ways of life, but sometimes it’s so hard to take in. You’ve shown me that not everyone is lost to evil, that goodness still exists. Meeting people like you reaffirms my belief that the Lord has a purpose for holding onto this Earth. If people like you exist, He has every reason to keep fighting, to keep awakening others—regardless of who they are, what they believe, or what they do—because the purity of their heart matters most.
I just want you to know how much you mean to me. How much you’ve brightened my journey simply by being who you are. I hope you can see your worth when you look in the mirror, even on days when it’s hard to remember. I know it’s not always easy, and you may not hear words like these every day. But this comes straight from my heart, and I wanted to make sure you knew just how special you are to me.
So, the point I’m trying to make is that even though sometimes I look back and wonder about my choice knowing that my new children will have to grow up in a chaotic world, that I’ll probably be gone by the time they’re adults—knowing that this world is indeed a difficult place, how hard life can be even for me, and knowing that many of the insights I’ve shared have been questioned, or for believers, have caused anxiety—I still know that staying was the right decision. I’ve helped a lot of people, and I’ve had the privilege of meeting beautiful souls that the Lord continues to fight for on this planet.
I understand that life can be very hard sometimes, and there are moments when you may not want to keep going. Many people out there long to leave this world. Yet, even I, who was ready to go, went asking for more time, have extended my stay—knowing that the road ahead could become even darker and more difficult. Because, I knew that there was a way to experience true love in this world, and to actually achieve my purpose of finding it, as well as helping others find the Lord.
And I did so, through being able to meet and work with many of you. The children I have are a miraculous gift. But what’s additionally just as miraculous, it’s getting a chance to see all of you grow in faith. But the truth is, no matter how you feel about life, you are here for a reason. I say it all the time—together, as a collective. Just by being here right now, amidst the darkness, we are allowing the Lord’s light to live on. Despite everything trying to extinguish it, we continue to keep that light alive.
Therefore, I’m really thankful that I got to extend my spiritual contract and stay longer. I get to go through this time with all of you and prepare everybody with knowledge and wisdom. I am the messenger of this time, and you make that great responsibility worth it. I’m thankful for that, even though the days may be hard. I hope this changes your perspective in wanting to live out the fullness of your life, and to be thankful even among the challenges, to be here right now.
You are the light of the world. And you are especially a light in mine. Just as much purpose as I’ve given to you, you’ve given to me, and that’s a beautiful story just in itself. I have more messages and wisdom to share, more people to save, more souls to meet and love. And I have two kids to bring me joy along the way too. Looking at those gifts, makes life worth the choice. You have to find the joys in your own too, and stay strong. Even if it just being a light here for God, you are meaningful. Never give up! You never know what the future holds and asI would’ve been long gone by now, here I am with the greatest gifts God could give in life. You too, could end up with an unimaginable future. And if not, you still served a purpose just by being here.
Thank you for being a part of my records.
Use Your Contract For Greater Change
While some people come to me seeking contract changes all the time. There have even been a few requests to shorten their lives. However, that’s something I haven’t been given the power to do. The Lord grants me the ability to extend time for others, but ultimately, when a person goes to Him, it’s His decision. Even if I had that ability, I don’t think I would want to participate in it. I love people enough to see their value, their potential even if they don’t see it. I read the soul after all, and I know there’s a better way for them.
Honestly, I believe everyone is valuable and worth fighting for. Sometimes, I fight for people harder than they fight for themselves, through the guidance that I seek for them, and the prayers that I speak, as well as the behind-the-scenes things that I do to try to help their path without telling them. Each person should see the value in themselves to want to fight for themselves too.
I believe it’s more meaningful to give yourself more time to pursue and accomplish your dreams. If you’ve ever had thoughts like that, I sincerely hope you’ll reconsider. Use your soul’s contract to reshape your circumstances and make life worth living instead!
