This rant is to prove a point, and share my truest intentions.

Recently, I was met with a comment on my YouTube video. And it only hurt my feelings because I had a lot of love and respect for the person that had left it. I know everyone’s entitled to their opinions or their perspective but, I really felt that they had the wrong one.

I am a different person from others, I’m angelic. I don’t belittle people for trying to be too pretty, nor do I judge people if they choose to be ordinary and plain. Because in my eyes, there is no difference.

Everyone is beautiful just being themselves, whether that means that they choose to glam up or glam down. Everyone is beautiful, except those that carry hate in their heart. Now that is something I can say that is not a form of beauty. Deadly sins are not a form of beauty. From jealousy, vanity, being covetous, greedy, stirring, contentions, lust, or wrath. All of those things are ugliness. The video I had made was just pointing out an underlying hidden message that I felt I wanted to share about a certain events that happened to lately, and a small part included the news surrounding a political figure that passed away. I hadn’t said anything negative about the person individually, but I was making some true statements about some things that he had said that perhaps I disagreed with. But I did show compassion for the person’s passing and in that, I was pointing out that our world is changing into a political storm, whereas we should be focusing more on the spiritual quality and essence of life, before the narratives that are being pushed about racism, politics and hatred, become the everyday norm as it seems they are already becoming.

Sure, people miss the hidden point. And perhaps, maybe just because of the title and subject of the video, the video was already pre-judged because of people’s own political feelings. I knew the individual hadn’t even watched the video fully, because if they had, they would not have mentioned “having to skip through because of the graphic nature” because there hadn’t been any graphics. I respect people and their families, and to have anyone harmed in a video, it would be something beyond my taste. But yet, it was nitpicked apart, going from the fact that they thought I was trying to focus on my looks too much, or that I even was experimenting with creative ideas with AI.

I once felt inspired by the same commenter previously, as I hadn’t heard from them in a long time, and back some videos ago they complimented my new creative style. Now, it felt like they were judging. But to question my authenticity really hurt, because even if I did a cruddy job with an experimental editor on the video, my messages are real, the spiritual wisdom deep and original, and my desire to present myself as being glamorous, unchanged.

From the depths of my soul, I’ve was born with Spiritual gifts and since childhood, I had a fierce passion to be a spiritual teacher. I knew it was my purpose to be a vessel for divine connection, blessed with an innate gift to commune with angels. Yet, physically, I was born with platinum blonde hair, piercing blue eyes, and full lips, I resembled my father more in his features, but I resembled my mother in her femininity. Both were blondes as children too. My mom blue eyed.

My appearance? I never originally sought to change it. Why would I?

My mother, she was radiant, and it was her, who shaped my love for elegance. A cosmetics maven with a touch of cosmetology training, she’d rise at dawn, painting her face with artistry, always poised for my father, exuding unshakable confidence whether at the grocery store or a grand event. Her refined aura was magnetic, and I soaked it in.

As a teenager, I yearned to embody that same bold confidence, but on my terms. Some days, I’d weave magic with makeup, adorning myself with gemstones and sparkles that mirrored my vibrant spirit. Other days, I’d embrace the raw beauty of sweatpants and a bare face, fully at ease in my skin. It was always my choice, cosmetics were never a mandate, but a canvas for self-expression.

My figure, with its wider hips and without curves up top, wasn’t always what I dreamed of, but I embraced it as God’s design. This is only a vessel. But in this world the vessel is judged first because the soul is hidden underneath.

Whether I went full glamour or stayed humbly natural, it was not about chasing anyone else’s approval. And yet, some despised my unapologetic confidence. Their judgment? It never dulled my light. My heart, was too full of love and understanding.

Stepping into my spiritual calling demanded more courage that dwarfed any fears about being judged for my appearance. Sharing my angelic connection felt like peeling back my soul, raw and vulnerable.

When I began posting online, I’d sometimes wear anime-inspired makeup for my videos, other times baring my face completely.

Anyone can scroll through my countless Facebook pictures and see, or even look me up on Google, and go back throughout the years and how I’ve always liked to get dressed up for the camera. I believed that cosmetics are a form of artwork and self expression, but I’m not afraid to show myself all natural either, as I’ve proven as well too. Someone really concerned with their looks, wouldn’t really care.

Through it all, I preached one truth to young girls: love yourself fiercely, as you are. Don’t fix what isn’t broken. Express who you are. Be the best version of yourself. Dreams? Chase them, but root them in self-love first. Be unapologetically you, while always striving to be your best.

All of my past photos show, I’m the same. Yet, recently the spotlight has fixated on my looks and my use of AI tools. I want to cut through the narratives already being formed and so I wrote this.

Listen, everyone’s using tools to create online now, it’s the world we live in! I’ve been crystal clear that I reject AI for deception, spreading lies, or anything that feels like it’s hijacking humanity. But when wielded with integrity, AI is a revolution.

Anyone and everyone who knows me, knows my “talk to text” has been my enemy when writing or communicating. Editing has always been my weak spot. Years ago, I used to pour my heart into blogs, churning out dozens weekly, typos and all, just to share my truth. That raw passion was pure, unfiltered.

I thought spiritual seekers would embrace the ideas, not nitpick small errors. But criticism came, and now, AI became my ally, using Grammarly, polishing my words while keeping every syllable straight from my heart. My authenticity? Untouched. My presentation? The same, but with more colorful backgrounds and adding visuals to help with telling my story or sharing my message.

From my earliest videos, I’ve been a glamorous force, sometimes speaking in a soft, feminine cadence, sometimes blazing with fiery conviction. Bold makeup and lashes one day, bare-faced vulnerability the next.

That’s authenticity, showing every facet of myself without fear.

Yet, the focus keeps circling back to my appearance. I don’t need to defend myself.

I’m making a point.

People see only what they want to see, when they want to see it. How come nobody ever mentioned my make up and videos before? I’ve always acted the same?

I stand for women everywhere. As a spiritualist, an ordained minister, and a psychology graduate, I find it degrading that a woman’s authenticity is questioned just for embracing glamour, especially when it’s other women wielding the critique. They, of all people, should understand the desire to present yourself beautifully, to feel vibrant and true without hiding. Still, the harsh words fly under the radar. Not only through that YouTube comment, such as the one that was left, but there were even hateful letters that were sent out to my students, focusing on my appearance. Just because everyone else out there in the world is changing their face, doesn’t mean that I have too!

I was open about the only changes that I have made, and why. I can’t understand why people can’t see why it was necessary in some aspects medically? But my focus on make up? That’s always been there.

It’s already been hard enough for me to build my brand or to get anywhere in trying to get my message out there. I was blessed to find a few new friends who wanted to help with working with me on different ideas on how to present my videos.

Those people suggested using AI visuals and colorful backgrounds. But me? I am still the same exact person in the video, looks, message, and love. Just because one time, I used an AI generated version of myself to get a video done quickly, doesn’t rob me up my realness. It’s shows a busy person, who is doing their best to make things work.

I’ve never hidden my journey. After four children, three C-sections, and hernias, my body bore the scars of creation. I wasn’t embarrassed by them, but hernias were painful and my stomach damaged. In my 40s, I chose to reclaim the form I always envisioned, not for anyone else, but for me. I shared this openly in a raw blog and video, explaining how pregnancy ravaged my body, and how, if I was going to heal, I’d go all in to sculpt my dream silhouette. I found it so strange that I had just posted a heartfelt video just prior to the criticized one, explaining my true intentions.

Yet, the comment was still left? Almost as if my story, my being open about my personal struggles in my journey didn’t matter? Why are people trying to paint me in this new negative way?

Out of respect, I’ve filmed from the shoulders up, keeping it classy, setting an example. Yet, I’m still judged for my confidence? My appearance doesn’t define my soul.

Why does society insist a virtuous woman can’t also be sexy? This outdated notion, that goodness, integrity, and kindness can’t coexist with allure, is absurd. It’s rooted in rigid traditions, religious dogma, or media’s false dichotomy of “pure” versus “seductive.” I reject that. I’m not using my appearance to lure men or try to seduce anyone. I’m just trying to look beautiful for myself and feel confident. And that’s modesty.

Modesty is when you act with pure intentions. Modesty, to me, is a radiant inner grace that shines through in how you carry yourself, humble in actions and how you treat others, how you speak, being authentic, and grounded in respect for yourself and others. It’s not about hiding your beauty or dimming your light, but about letting your character, kindness, and integrity take center stage. A modest woman can still be confident, even glamorous, rocking a killer outfit or a bare face, as long as her choices reflect self-love and dignity, not a need for external validation.

It’s about knowing that your worth lies in your heart and actions, not just your appearance, and living in a way that uplifts those around you. Modesty is power, not restriction, it’s being unapologetically you, while honoring the divine spark within. And I have always done that!

A woman can radiate confidence, charm, and a killer look while embodying virtue. Being sexy doesn’t negate your morals, it’s simply self-expression of a divine feminine. Society needs to shatter these tired stereotypes. And the same goes for women who are overweight, those who don’t wear makeup, who are thin and do, and it should apply no matter the color of their skin. Women should be free to express themselves in any way, as long as it’s classy, for modest and pure reasons, and real.

Life is a canvas, and so are we.

I believe with every fiber of my being that a woman can be classy, sensual, and a divine feminine goddess while radiating righteousness in every thought, word, and deed. My life is a living testament to virtue, those who know me, see it, and my loved ones would stake their hearts on it.

Yet, because I’ve made minor enhancements to heal pregnancy’s toll, my breasts, my stomach, I’m belittled? After over a decade of sharing transformative spiritual teachings, accurate readings, and life-changing courses, a few physical changes eclipse my legacy?

AI in my content? I’ve never shunned it, AI is a tool, not a sin. I’ve been pushing creative boundaries, infusing my videos with vibrant indigo, pink, and gold backgrounds to reflect my soul and build my brand. My older videos? Raw, unpolished, me in a kitchen chair, poor lighting, diving deep into spiritual truths. That rawness was real, but why can’t I evolve?

It’s like I could never make everybody happy. Some people would complain that the audio was too low or too loud, or they would claim that the lighting was too dim. And so I have tried to just step it up a bit and make things more beautiful. I work with an editor, but every creative choice is mine. As a mother of four, running a household, a business, delivering hundreds of readings monthly, healing, coaching, teaching, and creating free content out of pure love, I’m stretched thin.

So, I used AI completely for one entire video to share my message quickly. Normally, I mix it up with my talking and use AI for visuals but for the one I’m referring to, I used AI completely. Instead of praise, I got shade, not just for the tool, but for my looks too. They claimed I care too much about my appearance now, which is nonsense. My old Facebook posts prove, I’ve always embraced glamour.

Trauma and grief aged me for a time, but through spiritual healing, a healthy diet, and a touch of weight gain, I’m glowing again. Why is confidence a crime?

AI is just a storytelling tool, amplifying my ability to share profound truths with clarity and flair. Criticizing my authenticity for experimenting, or embracing my vibrance really hurt.

I send love to those who judge, I hold no grudges, only compassion. I believe in the beauty of women, enhanced or natural. If someone’s face was scarred by fire, wouldn’t they seek healing?

I’m aging, and while you can’t hide time, you can age with grace. My surgeries were necessities, not vanities, born from pregnancy’s toll. Accusations of Botox or fillers though? Those are falsehoods. My lips are mine! You can check my childhood photos.

I use brightening filters because my home’s lighting is dim, but I don’t owe explanations. I choose to share because I live authentically, speaking from my heart when moved.

My mother taught me: if you have nothing kind to say, say nothing. Why tear someone down over their glow or tools used, when the world is drowning in real pain, murders, atrocities, suffering?

To those who judge, I ask: why fixate on the superficial when Jesus himself said, “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” (Matthew 7:3).

Virtue shines in how we treat others, the choices we make, the kindness we embody, not in our makeup or creative tools. To question my integrity over my confidence or my use of AI to try something new, reveals more about the critics than me.

I feel a deep sadness living in a world where genuine connection and understanding seem scarce. People today are quick to criticize over trivial matters, often missing what truly matters.

Recently, I saw people celebrating the death of the political speaker that I made the video on. Though I disagreed with much of what he said, I couldn’t fathom rejoicing in someone’s passing. How can anyone? Yet, this reflects the society we’re in.

Why do people resort to cruelty or superficial judgments instead of seeking deeper understanding? Whatever happened to the spiritual principle I’ve always taught, that everyone has their own unique story? We don’t always know the struggles others have faced. Where is the empathy, the compassion?

By openly sharing my own story, I strived to be authentic and show I care, not for others’ opinions, but to create mutual respect and prevent misunderstandings. I wanted people to know me, to know my truth.

I have a deep love for people, always celebrating their joys and never tearing anyone down. If we disagree, I acknowledge it respectfully without criticism or debate.

Scripture warned us of these times when mindsets would shift, even among those who once claimed deep spirituality. But spirituality isn’t a trend, as I’ve shared in my videos and blogs. It’s a way of life, a state of being that comes from within, not from fleeting opinions. It requires the courage to look deeper into the heart.

To my supporters, I’m endlessly grateful. I stand unwavering in my principles of virtue, righteousness, and strength, believing women can embody glamour, class, and divine elegance, as long as it’s of used for the wrong reasons or that they act out of righteousness.

I’d never use AI for deceit or depict violence, except to respectfully educate about victims.

I’m thankful for those who defended me, seeing I’m just a busy woman sharing my heart. That one AI-assisted video wasn’t my finest, but I was juggling projects and felt compelled to share predictions about tragedies like Charlie Kirk’s death and the Ukrainian girl’s passing. I mourned for them, editing out graphic details to honor their families. Social media shouldn’t amplify violence, it’s a heartless trend. Despite disagreements with Kirk’s views, I’d never wish harm on anyone. My videos aimed to uncover deeper truths beneath these events, offering insights into the future with respect and love. But even with that, we live in a place where even families are divided because of opinion. My niece is a liberal, and is a lesbian. I don’t judge her political views, even if we share different views. I love her, no matter what.

But just because my daughter expressed condolences towards Charlie Kirk’s death, she was deleted as a friend on social media, by my niece? We don’t have to agree on things, and just because we feel badly about something that happens, doesn’t mean that we support the person or what they represented. It just shows sympathy which is what society is lacking. And if I don’t agree with something that somebody represented, doesn’t mean that I’m going to show hatred myself. That was the message that I was trying to convey in the video.

People everywhere are being misguided by the agenda and propaganda today, to be divided. And everyone is falling into it. And the comment that I received on the video just went on to prove my point even more, that people look at the wrong things. Or they’re not looking more deeply beneath the surface before they express themselves.

This world is fracturing, hatred festers, dividing humanity over politics, religion, race. Kirk once called empathy a “sin” and a “doorway to the occult.” I couldn’t disagree more. Empathy is the heartbeat of humanity.

In my 2019 blog In The Dark and YouTube’s Indoor Generation, I foresaw a world forced indoors, stripped of compassion, divided by a global agenda. The pandemic and isolation I predicted came true, desensitizing us, fueling chaos. My courses and book hold these truths, but do people want to hear them? Would they rather focus on the fact that I’m wearing some make up to look more presentable in my video or that I am trying to be a little more creative? Or focus on the spiritual message instead? What’s more important? The message or the surface judgment?

Does society prefer blindness, lashing out, even killing over differences? Is this the world we want for our children?

I miss the kindness of the ‘90s, when people held their tongues and hearts were softer. Even back throughout time, there has always been violence, and a lot of the crime that we see today, has been there to some degree. Only social media amplifies it more. And on purpose. And yes, it has increased in numbers, the amount of crimes and murders that are taking place today as social media continues to push this picture toward people. It insights anger, aggression, and violence in ways that people aren’t seeing clearly.

I saw this storm coming, but one voice, mine, struggles against deliberate silencing, judged for my appearance or tools. I pour my soul into every one of my videos in the past, but today the platform is changing. And so I’m working harder to make the content a little more updated, choosing each image, clip, and topic with care to share deeper truths.

See me, not the version you want to judge.

To every woman reading this: you are a masterpiece, flaws and all. Love yourself fiercely. If something’s broken, fix it without shame, but don’t alter what’s already perfect. My surgeries healed the wreckage of childbirth, and I’m at peace with God. He knows my journey. My visions and teachings deep, real.

Let’s focus on what matters: uplifting each other, seeing hearts, not surfaces. The world is crumbling, don’t add to the noise with judgment. Let’s spread love, empathy, and truth instead.

Can people just be happy for me? I am finally able to create better content, and I’m feeling a lot better these days. Its been a rough few years. for goodness sake, I lost my entire family. My grandfather, my uncles, my own father, all within a year in 2019. Then I had two new children, two C-sections, three hernias, four home floodings, and the loss of three of my students due their passing away within 2017-2023. I have my teachings stolen from me, and people leave me behind once they take what they want from me. And I shared every bit of my personal life openly online, the entire way.

If that’s not authenticity on top of the truth that I’ve taught, with legit predictions that I’ve made for years added to that, then I don’t know what is.

Look, I am who I am. I’m me.

But just for the sake of proving it, every photo that I have shared here from the past, still reflects the same exact beauty that I display today. There’s no difference. And, my lips are the same size too! I have always said that it’s beauty that comes from within and no matter how we choose to appear on the outside shouldn’t change who we are on the inside. But the beauty inside generally reflects it even more greatly externally.

Be confident in who you are, no matter who that is. Please never be afraid to grow or evolve.

With that, I’m good with God. I just want things to be good with my remaining followers and friends. I just want my followers to not fall into the new narrative that a few people have tried to circulate. Especially people that haven’t been around in years, or those that are only just arriving.

But I will never allow anyone to tarnish my authenticity or my reputation. It’s OK that perhaps maybe on the surface that’s what they may have thought and I’m forgiving. I send the individual love. But it did hurt my heart a lot as they should’ve known better. It’s not fair to judge the surface. If they didn’t like the AI used in the video that’s fine, I didn’t personally like the way that it turned out either.

I’m not focusing on my appearance, more, I have always tried to look beautiful in my videos and photos, and I haven’t changed much over the years except for the things that I have openly discussed with people, and the medical reasons as to why I needed them. My youth is due to healings called cellular rejuvenation, and I have even written about my opinion on fillers and what they actually do to a person’s face. But even if anyone else had them, I don’t judge. There’s definitely a healthier and more spiritual way to reserve your youth through biohacking and rejuvenation healings, but hey, people are free to make their own choices you know? But to me, it’s not a person’s appearance that matters, it’s the soul within and how the carry themselves, the goodness inside, the beauty in loving words that they speak and actions made in wisdom. But a beautiful soul can radiate from within to make a person even more beautiful on the outside too. It’s even more of a package if they have both.

It’s only out of respect for my followers who trust me, that I felt a need to post this, or even add pictures to prove the point. Your respect and your love is valued and cherished so much, that I would go out of my way, such as to do so. I stand by my truth. I’m only trying out the new YouTube thumbnails to spark intrigue and interest, and trying to be more creative with my content. There are so many new styles of YouTube videos out there now, I’m just trying to find my new groove.

In closing, for newcomers, can we please now focus on what really matters? The message that I carry? Life is already been pretty hard on me and trying to teach people spirituality and bring visions that don’t always align with people’s views, has been really hard on me and trying to get my message out there. I’ve had censorship issues, and there are so many others now speaking the same exact messages that I spoke first many years ago, Who are getting somewhere with it. I’m not getting millions of views here, I’m just making humble content with a love of trying new experimental things in order to be more creative while teaching, and that’s really my only intention. I love God with all of my heart and talking about spiritual subjects has always been my deepest passion. And I don’t want judgment ever taking that away from me.

May you remain blessed!