Whispers of the Lotus Soul: Forging Forgiveness, Boundaries, and Eternal Bonds in the Awakened Heart

Serene portrait by Nashish for Alura Cein’s Spiritually Awkward blog: Ethereal blonde woman in flowing white gown meditates on a radiant pink lotus amid rippling waters, glowing aura symbolizing spiritual awakening, forgiveness, and empath boundaries
Thanks to Nashish, for Art.
Embracing the Eternal Echo: Coping With Sensitivity, Solitude, and the Sacred Dance of Forgiveness

In the quiet hush of this morning’s dawn, winter’s frost etched silver filigree on the windowpane, I found myself once more at the precipice of my soul’s vast ocean. The world hums with unseen currents, vibrations of joy and sorrow, love and loss, that lap at the shores of my being like relentless waves.

As an empath, an ascended soul traveling the awkward alchemy of the spiritual and the mundane, I am both vessel and voyager.

Visions pound me hard. My heart, a cosmic sponge, absorbs the experiences of my previous lifetimes, but this one especially. Pictures flashed in my mind and led to memories.

I thought of the laughter of Alexander’s first Halloween mask, the sting of a father’s untimely departure. My thoughts moved to recalling the glitch of my smartphone that mirrors the fractures in our fragile connections. Everything flooded into my third eye like a picture book whose pages were being flipped through too quickly.

2012. I saw my first client emailing that they were happy that a spell I did, reunited she and her lover.

2013. I saw Amber, Gia and I playing “Just Dance”. We were poor still. Amber, Noah and I shared a bedroom, me sleeping on the floor at night so that the kids had beds to rest in. On weekends, we all took to the floor with blankets, Amber ‘s friend Gia joining us. Without money or transportation, we were left to games at home or long walks to get out. In that memory, we all danced to “Starships” by Nicki Minaj. It was our workout. Not enough funds to join a gym.

Another image flashed. 2014. I was sitting on my computer on a website called “Starseeds.net”. People flooded my messages with questions about spirituality. My blogs and YouTube channel had already been up for a year and half already and many wanted to know more. I used a photo of myself holding a crystal ball encircled by a rainbow, as my profile pic.

2014. A man named Mark from Australia and I had become close friends through my work online. I was awaiting his email in the vision, but received one from a woman named Sherry, a real estate agent from California. She asked me to join her on a cruise out there, after helping her. Excitedly, I begged my parents to watch Amber and Noah so that I could go, but they said no. I was so disappointed. I had never really been anywhere. Mark got in touch with me later, and cheered me up.

Another image appeared, of later that same year. I sat in my backyard, but this time I had finished doing a spell with my daughter. We had a huge fire and called the elements of fire. It was a beautiful night under a blood moon. Amber and I used the remaining embers of the dying bonfire to roast marshmallows. It was a beautiful Summer evening.

The images continued, one after the other, all containing moments that played in like movie clips in my third eye, teleporting me back to missed days of old. Times that were simpler. I could hear the voices as we chatted in the images. The music that played back then could be heard as clearly as if the radio was right by my side again next to me, playing them all over again clearly.

Outside the energy felt somewhat normal with hints of sentiment. Tapping back into the energy at present, it all felt so empty. Nothing like the years before. I started channeling further and found myself spiraling down the rabbit hole.

I went from years ago in the past, to the present, and by that time, I was expanding into the firmament. I felt the world’s depression, loss, and the fears of so many people which lingered in the airwaves.

I saw Ukraine.

I saw the pasttimes of the country, memories of families who once lived there. Some of their family members were dead, others… separated from each other by taking refuge elsewhere. I felt the people missing their loved ones. I saw an elderly woman’s memories of having grown up there since she was small. Already she had lived in danger there once during the holocaust, but eventually there was peace. Oh how different Ukraine was then! I felt her feelings of hopelessness of witnessing war again.

It was all so sad. I saw backhanded deals in politics. I saw my own future. I saw protests erupting next year, more.

After long, I wished the visions would stop. But how? By that time, I had let the whole world in. And it hurt in more ways than one.

Afterwards, I just shutdown. I think I started to shut down a long time ago. I didn’t shut my gifts down, but I started holding in my visions, my thoughts, keeping them to myself, to protect myself. Aside from the world, I witnessed so many traumatizing things through my visions, from allowing so many people to get close to me in the past, knowing that they would hurt me. I know I can only blame myself for allowing them in, but my unconditionally, loving heart could never deny anyone. And I have no regrets. Yet, I hurt inside to think of human nature. Heaven explains it, but I can’t grasp it yet. Or I have difficulty accepting rather. How can people hurt others? How can people prioritize themselves instead of their loved ones? Why are they so blind to so many things? How can they just follow the world so easily. How can someone hurt someone who has been so good to them? Why hurt animals? Children? How can people treat one another like objects? I ask heaven so many of these questions and even in the deepest explanations that they give me, I say: “ No.”

Humans can be shifty. Communication makes me jumpy.

Imagine if you can, I receive a single text, innocuous to most, yet as I open it , it makes me shake within like a meteor shower. Nausea rises, visions flicker at the edges of sight, tremors ripple through limbs unbidden. It’s not the fault of the person texting me, it’s the remnants of the visions that I had, that have me shaken up. Or, that I saw too deeply. Why can’t I just see everyone the same as everyone else? Where things hidden from the ordinary in a persons past, or mind, are never seen?

Trying to text back, I sense the individual is low in vibration, good, sweet natured, but in need of healing. I hesitate to reply. I can’t add one thing to the other. It’ll cause me so much uneasiness afterwards. Even if, I seek to see the good. I always look for the good. I told Heavenly Father if I see a bad person who has even 10% of potential to be good, I’ll focus on that. I’ll do anything to show that to the person themselves too. Many times the percentage increases. Most times, even if it does, I get hurt. It’s worth it, I suppose.

Sometimes, I wish I just wasn’t as I am. This is my reality, where psychic sensitivity amplifies the world’s into roars. In my own growth, I’ve learned that such overloads stem not from weakness, but from an unshielded light-body, porous to the residues of others’ unresolved traumas. I have dealt with it all of my life.

A casual phone call becomes a conduit of shadows; an in-person exchange, a deluge that leaves me bedridden, soul-spent. Why can’t people just love?

The Hypersensitive Heart: A Gift Wrapped in Thorns

But the divine irony! This vulnerability is the forge of deeper wisdom. It compels me to erect sacred boundaries, not walls of resentment, but veils of holy solitude. It all teaches me so much, with heaven narrating over top to peel back layers.

It’s been a lot , to see the things I’ve seen. Like the lotus folding into the muddied waters to emerge pristine, I must retreat to recalibrate.

I have chosen, with a heart both heavy and liberated, to limit draining interactions: no more unvetted visits, no lingering calls that siphon my essence. I make the plans, and initiate texts. For years I’ve ensured that I avoided overload by avoiding calls and visits except after spiritual healings, and being completely pre-prepared. Even my cell phone stays far from me on a shelf, when not in use. Even the exposure to the Non-ionizing radiation off of my phone makes me feel low. I don’t under how people can sit on their phones all day? I get nausea and throw up after awhile.

In terms of health effects, cell phone radiation can greatly hurt your DNA, and ruin spiritual DNA activations if the person doesn’t rejuvenate by renewing the activation, and receiving quantum atomic healing to wash away those harmful energies. And let’s face it, there are other toxins in the energy all around us, in the ether. I wish people would trust me. I’ve always just tried to enlighten and keep everyone healthy. But I have to be in a good place divinely, in order to help those who seek me.

Instead, I will continue to offer my gifts through the ether, texts that carry healing frequencies, online sanctuaries where souls connect without the crush of proximity. In this choice, forgiveness blooms not as erasure, but as elevation. To love unconditionally is to see the divine spark in every wanderer, to release their hooks without bitterness, granting them, and ourselves, the freedom to evolve.

Although I’m already spiritually evolved myself personally, bad energy, stagnant energy, the sun, even my own psychic gifts can all harm me, depending on the nature of what I’m seeing or experiencing. It’s a shame.

I truly always dreamed of having a lot of people around me, and even maybe to even have had a true helper to share my life with, someone that I could really harmonize energies with. But sadly, it’s not looking like that’s going to happen for me, being that I’m sensitive like this. My true marriage, is to God, my people, my kids. That will always be my sacred vow.

I know how much more heartbreaking it is for the heavenly beings to witness earth’s current state and human conditions. I speak with many of the angels each day about it, leaning on them as a shoulder to cry on. I love humanity and earth so much, and it kills me to see evil.

All the while, so many other people would rather ignore it, or they mirror it back outwardly, or they wonder why should anyone even care since earth has had corruption since beginning of time anyway?

That’s not the point.

Even having been around looking down from above, prior to coming to earth, we knew that it was a corrupt place, but we also knew that it was going to get worse. That’s why messenger’s were sent every so many thousands of years, to help people awaken. That’s how much heaven cares, that sensitive, perfect messengers are sent down into this world that literally is heartbreaking and hard to handle to live in, to walk through this hell in order to help enlighten other people so that they can be done with the planet’s trappings, and they won’t have to experience the suffering here anymore. That’s sacrifice, and true love.

But nobody really notices it since there are so many, fake spiritual teachers out there, fake prophets, and miracle workers, and the few real ones are ripped off for their truth, being pushed into the background so that humanity never finds the true gateway out of here, they only feel hopeful through the facade.

The Fading Flame: Why Healings Demand Devotion

That’s why I created special packages that worked together, to create that feeling of divinity for people while they got the very best healing for every part of themselves. In Hinduism and Buddhism, they believe that each part of yourself is a part of your spirit. Mental, emotional, spiritual and physical. The same applies in the teachings of Jesus, only they disguise it a bit more. Jesus once said: “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery. But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” (Matthew 5:27). So to think about something is just as bad as doing it, and you’re using your thoughts and your emotions to ponder over something or desire it. All that’s left is to use your spiritual energy to push it into action. Even Proverbs 23:7 says: “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.”

In our era of accelerating ascension, the spirit’s machinery whirs with unprecedented fervor. Global energetic shifts, tied to solar flares, geomagnetic storms, and the collective churn of awakening, thicken the vibrational soup we swim in. Healings are more important than ever before. The imbalance in earths, energetic grid, the pollution in the air, the negative frequencies being emitted through the web of collective consciousness, it’s all dangerous to a spiritual being. Sure getting healings all of the time isn’t going to promise that you’re going to have a successful career, but it helps you have better connections with other people, clear thoughts, better, physical health, and it keeps you uplifted and closer to the divine sense, the divine energy surrounds you. Imagine just having close spiritual ties with people in your family can be detrimental to your health. If the people that you’re closest to, or thinking negative things, that streams back-and-forth through your spiritual ties, and you may end up feeling aggravated, irritable, or depressed, not knowing why, when it’s actually coming from someone that you are closely tied to. I’ve known this as a spiritual fact for a very long time, which is why I’ve put so much emphasis on also keeping soul ties clear.

You’re using half of yourself when thinking negative things that you shouldn’t be. These belief systems knew how imperative it was to keep these layers of self purified and clean, especially in an experience that continues to protect negativity all around you. Even on a subconscious level, you’re being poisoned every day. It’s in television, music, the Wi-Fi wavelengths that are invisible throughout the air that carry information and actually literally passes through you. That invisible intel enters your consciousness.

It’s also your own subconscious through things that you haven’t worked through yet that you struggle. Additionally, you’re infiltrated by the things that you see all around you in the world with your eyes, and even on social media. All of this is deliberately constructed to keep you down.

Environmental toxins, digital distortions, and the relentless pull of lower entities conspire to erode our alignments. I’ve witnessed it in my healings: a profound session that fuses your aura with angelic light, activates dormant DNA strands, and deflects the dross of daily discord, only to wane weeks later, like a candle guttering in the wind.

Why do these sacred infusions not “stick”? Well, part of it is entropy, the universe’s inexorable slide toward disorder. Even metaphysically there are etheric leaks, where ungrounded intentions invite parasitic vibes.

Spiritually, it should be a priority and a reminder of our co-creative dance on earth together. but sadly, there aren’t enough people I think this way you were even care. And many people aren’t taking care of their energy in order to provide that beacon of true pure light any longer. Healing is not a one-and-done elixir but a rhythmic maintenance, a devotion to the divine rhythm, devotion to your spirit and devotion to be a light worker by carrying purified light. Just as a garden demands weeding and watering amid seasonal changes, so too must we recommit to our light.

In my practice, I made perfect combination packages and even lowered the prices for a work that is divine and invaluable due to the unsurpassable worth, not out of obligation, but out of reverence for the soul’s sovereignty. Think of it, these types of healings wouldn’t even exist on earth to help people, if the Lord had not provided us with them. General Reiki by unskilled practitioners who can’t see your spiritual blueprint, doesn’t last very long, and there are no other healings out there that can get to the quantum atomic levels, rejuvenate cells, clean the layer of your aura, unclog your chakras, release, sicknesses, and infuse you with a higher vibrational energy from a higher dimension, like the ones that the Lord gave us in design. Plus, having a divinely constructed protection grids to lock that in?

The Lord also provided us with the ability to not only do this for ourselves or other people, but for homes and spaces. This way environments can feel clean and clear, welcoming, for people that enter. Even for people that own office spaces or businesses, these services help in making it more inviting and enjoyable. Haven’t you ever walked into an office and it was just cold and dull? Later on you went home feeling exhausted? Awakened spiritual people have the ability to change things for the better, but today they are forgetting to care about it.

Being a light worker isn’t just being a better person, acting more kindly toward others, or making better choices that are best for you and other people. Being a light worker isn’t just an environmental work. The term light is added to the word light worker because it also matters, the condition of your energy and spirit. How can you be a bright beacon of light, if you allow your energy to be dimmed down, unkept, and uncared for?

Many people get tired of having to continuously keep up with their spiritual care, but to me, I’ll never give up on mine. If I can shine brighter, bring a Divine loving essence into a room, if I can make a home or space feel a little more heavenly, if my energy makes the interactions that I have with animals and other people feel authentic, heavenly and loving, if it brings joy to their life even for a moment, then I’ll continue doing the energy services needed to keep that going.

I know all too well the benefits of the services and how they keep your health in good place too. I value the temple that my soul dwells in. I not only want to be a beacon of light, but also remain healthy, celebrating that the Lord allowed me to the opportunity to walk in this body, and help other people. By caring for my body, I show him that gratitude.

But sadly, not many people look at it this way anymore, and they’re not willing to invest their time into caring for themselves this way because they don’t think of it this way.

Picture it: your energy field, once frayed by the world’s static, being made into a luminous shield, repelling what dims you and amplifying what elevates. This is the art of spiritual hygiene, where consistency transmutes fragility into fortitude.

With so much negative energy out there, and people lacking and caring for their light, it’s very difficult for me to interact. I can communicate through email and text, and so on, but to have voice to voice or even person to person contact, their energy tunnels through me since naturally I’m channeling them, as I do with everyone and everything

If their energy is negative, it’ll hit me like a virus and bring me down pretty hard. There was one time, for example, that I had gotten off of the phone with someone that hadn’t received any healings for a while. I didn’t want hurt the person’s feelings by saying anything at the time, but their energy was making me so ill that I wanted to rush off of the phone. However, I’m kind and patient, and I allowed the person to continue their conversation, knowing that they needed me. But when I got off the phone, I literally collapsed on the floor, sweating, and vomiting, my body shaking from the negative impact of their energy.

This is in no way to judge anyone, but only to show you that spiritual energy is a very real thing and for me these days, being as sensitive to it as I am through my gifts, I have to be extremely careful.

I was lucky someone was home with me at the time that they could pick me up and put me in a cold bath to help me. I can’t expect every person that wants to speak with me or see me, to purchase a service in order to do so, and so I don’t recommend services anymore. I talk about them here and there, but I leave it up to people to make their own decisions so as not to coerce anyone to buy anything. But the fact of the matter is, as the world’s conditions get worse, people are also worsening in their energetic conditions. It’s bad for them and it’s making it very hard for me to be as open with others as I used to be.

On Being Hurt

My love runs so vast,” I once confessed in a raw Facebook post, “that each hurt fractures my core.” Yet, in mending those fractures with grace, I become a conduit for the unconditional flow. So fragile, and so loving, to be hurt would make someone like me leery of anyone who had hurt me, ever again. They would never get the same connection with me again, as I would always feel the need to protect myself. Of course I would never abandon them, but I would become guarded. Even though many may say that I can see who people are, and what they’re capable of deep down, even before getting involved with them, which is true, I always believed that having someone that truly loves and accepts you without judgment, and is always there for you, could be the type of love that changes a person from being hurtful in nature at all. But in my experience, I tried to help the people that I saw who were capable of hurting me or anyone in some way. But they were only just suppressing their true nature to try to be a better person (which I respect), but it still came out in the long run, whether hurting me somehow, or other people. I don’t judge, my heart is full of unconditional love and kindness, but I have to ensure that my heart is safeguarded. It reminds me of an innocent pet that loves its owner, and sees the owner can do no wrong even though the pet senses it. Then one day the owner beats it, but the animal still purely shows love and devotion to them regardless.

Threads of Legacy: Family as the Eternal Web of Light

Amid these solitary vigils, family emerges as the heartbeat of the eternal, a story written from joy’s bright yarns and grief’s somber silvers. All we have, are each other.

Halloween, that liminal eve when veils thin and ancestors draw near, has become our family’s ritual of remembrance. My son Alexander, with his pint-sized bravado, donned the killer clown guise this year, a nod to my father’s wild, elaborate costumes from my childhood, when Friday the 13th marathons left me huddled in terror. In that red-nosed regalia, Alexander channeled not just play, but legacy: honoring the grandfather he never met, bridging the chasm of loss with laughter and strangers’ cheers at a contest we miraculously won.

These moments are divine postscripts, reminders that love defies the linear tyranny of time.

My daughter Adriel’s paper airplane prayer that I mentioned in a previous entry, scrawled with pleas for adventure and ease, looped back not as grand fortune, but as a cascade of small miracles: an impromptu outing, a rediscovered iPad, a trickle of unexpected funds. Even the banal betrayals of technology, like my cursed iPhone 16’s phantom glitches ( never upgrade, heed my warning!), value this truth.

In the eternal now, devices falter, but soul bonds endure. They stitch across lifetimes, where I once foresaw my father’s passing at age 3 in the astral world, and again at age twelve, a psychic precognition that now informs my gentle guidance of my children through their own sensitivities. i’m guiding them through it but seeing how hard it is for me to live with these gifts, sometimes I wonder if it’s even something I want for them.

The River of Time: Virtue in the Vast Unfolding

At its core, our spiritually awkward sojourn is a meditation on time, not as a thief, but as an eternal river, carrying us through infinite expressions of the One. I have glimpsed this in past-life echoes: the betrayals that birthed compassion, the abundances that taught non-attachment. Losses pile like autumn leaves, home razed by fire, students scattered by circumstance, health besieged by the body’s rebellions, yet each is a lesson in virtue. To see life truly is to embrace impermanence without clinging, to love without possession, to forgive as an act of cosmic courtesy.

In this river, every encounter is sacred instruction. The“opponents” who wound us? Teachers in disguise, polishing our edges toward brilliance. The dreams that dissolve? Invitations to alternate graces, where God’s itinerary unfolds with impeccable timing. We are not adrift; we are held. To live ablaze in this flow demands patience in manifestation, trusting that prayers, whispered or scribbled on folded wings, alight on divine ears. Speak your truth from the heart’s unguarded chamber, laced with loving kindness, and watch resentment transmute to release.

Awakening to the Eternal Echo

Dear seeker, if your soul quivers at the world’s unseen symphonies, know this: your awkwardness is your anointing. Guard your light with the wisdom of boundaries, tend your healings with devoted rhythm, cling to your family’s stories into eternity’s loom, and surrender to time’s benevolent current. In forgiveness, find freedom; in solitude, sovereignty; in every breath, the divine’s whisper:

You are enough. You are eternal. You are loved beyond measure.

For me, though, I am protecting my home space, and my own personal spiritual space from this day forward. I am here to be a servant to all of you, as I will always continue to do so. However, I’ve done this alone for a very long time, and feeling alone, can sometimes bring questions. Even though I am a divine being, delaying my Nirvana for now, to help others achieve liberation, I still wonder. I serve as a compassionate guide, giving forbidden unknown knowledge to seekers, I’m an angel! I even hear when people call out to me and I help them without them even having to let them know that I’m doing so. But either way, I walk in my life alone. I ask, did I do a good job?

As I’ve reached this stage of my life of great sensitivity, I’m proud that I have the family members that I do. Without them, I would be utterly alone.

It’s just me, my children and my mother. But what happens if something happened to me? Where would the kids go? What happens if we have no income? Where will we live? Already with hardships that we’re facing, these are questions that seem to need an answer sooner than later. I wonder, as I have given my life in devout service to the Lord, giving all of my time to helping others, and serving him, spending every moment of my breathing life in conversation with heaven and being a service to others, I am now at the age of 43. It makes me ask heaven: “Will it always be this way?” When you find people that share you special bonds and understanding with, never let them go. Even still, time sometimes takes them away. My best companion, my daughter Amber, grown. Noah, also grown and attending to his girlfriend and future in laws. Dad, deceased from one vessel and in a different form that doesn’t hold the same dynamic. Mom, recluse. Everyone still here, not in the same way. I love deeply. I could have built life with anyone and everyone, Yet, I watch my future and the vision lead me into a fully bloomed lotus.

A single lotus flower, the bloom itself, typically lives for 3-5 days once it fully opens, during which it unfurls in the morning sunlight and closes partially or fully at night. After this, the petals wither and drop, leaving behind the seed pod, which matures over the following weeks. This is the definition of life. Even with 100 years is short compared to Earth’s age. Our lives are not long enough. The lotus symbolizes impermanence and rebirth. My life has bloomed, my seed pod, my children, growing up as my petals wither away. And while many flowers bloom together, the lotus lives standing alone, having risen from mud, not some strong hold of hardened earth, surrounded by water, the emotions I life with that encircle me everyday, seeing life with this view of only bright light.

I embrace the light totally. I love fully. And I see life truthfully.

Keeping everything written here in mind, I encourage everybody to take care of their spiritual energy, especially during the times that we live in. I know that I’ll be very overprotective of mine. That includes my home, my personal space, and my spiritual energy. I may have lived to be 40 something years old already, which brings a great deal of life experience, but I’ve lived many other lifetimes too, and I’ve witnessed many things from heaven as well to know, that there are many things in this world to be aware of, and to see what the most important things are that we should focus our time and intention on. I see through people, the masks that they wear, the façades that they try to display, and for me, I’m all about being real.

So in this, I’ll always be here for everyone, always! If you need me, you know where to reach me. Shoot me a text message but please respect that right now, my spiritual gifts are putting me in a very vulnerable place as well as the challenges and hardships that I’m facing in my life alone.

Yet, in this hypersensitivity lies not a curse, but a clarion call, to forgive fully, to boundary boldly, and to heal ceaselessly in the eternal now. Put the things that are supposed to matter the most, first. Be the big of light that shines brightly and more ways than one and don’t neglect your spiritual care, your home environments, or the layers that make you who you are mentally, emotionally, spiritually or even physically. You are the temple that holds the living light. And continue to learn. I’m not quite sure how much longer I’ll be able to pay for my online school and once it’s gone, all of the lessons there will go with it. Enroll in some of them and take advantage of it while it’s there. Even though there are so many people out there that are replicating some of my teachings, even using AI to try to act as if they know something Deeper, my teachings are authentic and truly from heaven. It would be a terrible thing to miss out on in this lifetime. Like I said, heaven sends a messenger every so many thousands of years, to come and find the people that they want to come home, and awaken them. Continue being one of those people. 

May this echo resonate in your chambers, stirring the lotus within. Chase the ripples, cherish the now, and bloom unapologetically.

With boundless light,
Alura Cein

Healings Not Sticking?

If any of you have been ordering healings from my website sporadically and noticed they’re not as potent or long-lasting as before, there’s a profound reason rooted in the shifting dynamics of our world.

I’ve discussed this in earlier blogs here and on my official site, warning that post-Passover, a major energetic transition would occur. This isn’t just a casual observation, it’s a convergence of scientific, metaphysical, and spiritual forces reshaping human vibrations. Let me explain deeply into this, layer by layer, to give you a comprehensive understanding of why maintenance is key and how you can reclaim that efficacy.

First, consider the energy shift itself. Scientifically, our planet is undergoing rapid atmospheric and societal changes that directly impact human biology and psychology. Climate change, for instance, amplifies greenhouse gases like carbon dioxide, altering Earth’s energy balance and leading to extreme weather events such as heat waves, droughts, and storms.

These environmental stressors influence our bioelectric fields, think of the human body as a conductor of electromagnetic energy, where pollution and temperature fluctuations can disrupt cellular communication and hormone regulation, fostering heavier “vibrations” akin to increased stress and inflammation. Societally, the rise in air pollution from energy sources contributes to respiratory issues and mental health declines, weighing down our natural vitality. Metaphysically, this manifests as a densification of collective energy fields; the Earth’s aura, much like our own, is bombarded by lower-frequency vibrations from human discord, technology overload, and geomagnetic shifts, pulling individuals into heavier states.

Spiritually, this aligns with prophetic timelines where “darker forces”, symbolizing ego-driven chaos or karmic cycles, accelerate these changes, diverging from divine harmony and forcing souls to adapt or descend into lower consciousness.

Now, why do infrequent healings fall short? If you’re only getting one every few months without upkeep, the effects don’t compound. Scientifically, energy healing like quantum modalities can stimulate biofields, reducing pain and edema through mechanisms like pulsed electromagnetic fields (PEMF), which penetrate tissues to promote wound healing and cellular repair.

However, without repetition, these benefits fade as the body’s homeostasis resets amid daily stressors—much like how a single therapy session might offer temporary relief via placebo or endorphin release, but lacks the cumulative neural rewiring for lasting change.

Metaphysically, healings infuse your aura with higher vibrations, but gaps allow atmospheric energies, think wavelengths in the air carrying collective negativity to erode them, as our energy fields are porous and interactive. Spiritually, each healing builds on the last by strengthening soul ties; when spaced too far, the angelic essence I channel dissipates, unable to anchor against worldly pulls that override spirit with material concerns.

To visualize this, here’s a diagram illustrating the layers of the human aura, showing how these energy fields surround and interact with our physical form:

Notice how the etheric, emotional, and mental layers can be influenced by external vibrations if not maintained.

You can’t expect one service to fix everything permanently. Quantum healing, for example, taps into subatomic levels where thoughts and intentions might influence energy states, though scientific evidence is mixed, some studies suggest biofield therapies advance understanding of pain relief and mental health, while skeptics note a lack of conclusive proof for direct cures.

It feels good initially because it aligns your quantum field, potentially via entanglement principles where distant energies connect, but daily exposures to coworkers’ stress energies or electromagnetic pollution from devices counteract it.

Metaphysically, as I’ve taught, everything vibrates in wavelengths; without renewing your protective grids, sacred geometric patterns that shield your aura, these intrusions create spiritual ties that drain vitality.

Spiritually, this is about staying fused with angelic light, which deflects lower entities; without it, reality’s illusions penetrate, dimming your heavenly presence.

Here’s an illustration of quantum energy healing and vibrational fields, depicting how these subtle energies might interact at a subatomic level:

Reflect on your early spiritual enthusiasm, healings lasted because you were actively engaged. Scientifically, consistent practice builds neuroplasticity, rewiring brain pathways for sustained well-being, much like how music therapy modulates heart rhythms and reduces pain perception through vibrational entrainment. Metaphysically, that zeal kept your aura vibrant, with multiple layers (etheric to causal) aligned and protected. Spiritually, it maintained strong ties to divine sources, allowing my essence infused in each healing, to linger and sustain.

In my healings, I channel not just angelic or spiritual energy, but my own essence, creating a bond. If our connection weakens, that energy doesn’t persist. Scientifically, this mirrors biofield interactions where practitioner-client rapport enhances outcomes, as seen in studies on Reconnective Healing. Metaphysically, auras reflect soul states, and without ongoing fusion, negative vibrations dominate. Spiritually, it’s about overcoming worldly consciousness through service, activating dormant DNA strands via light codes, energetic blueprints that unlock higher awareness and deflect negativity.

To deepen this, view this depiction of angelic light in spiritual energy healing, symbolizing the divine infusion that protects and elevates:

Please, commit to your spiritual care: Maintain dimensional DNA alignment by activating extra strands through meditation and service, fuse with angelic light to sense heavenly deflection of worldly negatives, and pursue quantum atomic healings for holistic body-mind-soul restoration.

Stay immersed in studies to prevent worldly penetration, once it overrides spirit, reconnection demands greater effort. This multifaceted approach ensures healings not only work but transform you profoundly.

Wishes on a Paper Airplane: A Lesson in Faith and Manifestation

It started with a simple conversation between me and my little girl, Adriel. We were talking about manifestation, the idea that our thoughts and wishes can shape our reality, and how wishes coming true isn’t just fairy-tale magic, but something deeper, tied to faith.

She looked up at me with those wide, curious eyes and asked, “If I send a wish to God, will it happen?” I smiled and told her that God answers our prayers, but not always in the way we expect, and sometimes on His own timeline. It’s all about trusting that He’s listening and knows what’s best. I love doing these little lessons with my children. I already know that the Lord is going to answer their wish for them each time, to show them that he’s real in their lives. Plus, they have me to ask him for them as well too. 

Inspired, Adriel wanted to put it to the test. I folded a paper airplane at her request, one for her and one for her brother Alexander. But it was Adriel who carefully scribbled her wishes on hers. She launched it into the air with all the hope a child can muster, sending her desires soaring toward the heavens. It didn’t fly up into the sky, but circled back around to her and landed back on the deck next to her feet. She felt so disappointed because God did not catch her paper airplane up into the sky that she thought he had not received her wishes. I reassured her, telling her that he knows what she’s asking for and to be faithful and just wait. This also included lessons in virtue, including having patience.

Life had been feeling a bit stifling lately. Between school starting up, my days as an office assistant twice a week, running errands, tending to the animals and family, cleaning the house, and trying to rebuild my business, there was barely a moment to breathe. I’d been hit with a powerful vision earlier in the week while driving with my son, adding to the swirl of energies pulling at me. We all needed a break, something fun and in the spirit of Halloween, but with finances tight, we were even counting change from the jar like we hadn’t in years, options felt limited.

Adriel’s first wish? To get out of the house and go somewhere exciting. And wouldn’t you know it, that wish unfolded beautifully. We were invited to a drive-through light show, where the characters synced perfectly with the music, lighting up the kids’ faces with joy.

Afterward, we stopped at Shane’s Confectionery, that historic candy shop in Philadelphia from 1863, treating them to some sweets. I try to keep sugar limited in their diets, so me and the kids decided against traditional trick-or-treating this year, they’ll just stroll around town in their costumes instead.

But this outing felt like a perfect gift, complete with a late lunch at a nearby restaurant decked out in full Halloween glory. It tied right into the lessons I’m teaching them about the autumn equinox, manifestation, and celebrating the end of the harvest season. The timing couldn’t have been more divine.

Her second wish was for Mommy to get a little extra money to help with the bills, something I often pray about myself as the month winds down. And the third? To find her lost iPad, the one thing that keeps her occupied when I’m buried in tasks. We’d searched high and low, checking the same spots over and over, but it was nowhere to be found. She was heartbroken.

Yet, after that paper airplane took flight, miracles started stacking up. Not only did we escape the house for those magical Halloween adventures, but the iPad mysteriously reappeared, and in one of those very spots we’d scoured multiple times! Adriel’s delight was palpable; she beamed, thanking God for making it “reappear” and for our Philadelphia journey. She wondered aloud why the financial wish hadn’t come through yet, but little did she know, God was already at work.

I sorted out some late bills and helped my mother a bit, she relies on a single VA check from my father’s widow support, which gets split with his ex-wife and has been reduced lately, leaving her stretched thin. Then, a small payment trickled in through my website business. It wasn’t a windfall, but it arrived just in time for gas money and a hand to my mom.

Everything we receive goes right back into caring for the family, saving for school, and keeping things afloat, but this felt like a direct answer.

Seeing her wishes manifest so quickly, bam, bam, bam, really strengthened Adriel’s belief. It showed her that when you have faith, the Lord is there, listening and responding. I’m grateful for these moments because as my kids grow, witnessing His work in their lives will build a foundation of trust.

But I also want them to understand faith even when prayers aren’t answered right away, or at all. Sometimes, God knows the right time, or that something else is better for us. These are the lessons unfolding as we go, one paper airplane at a time.

We’re gearing up for Halloween now, costumes in the works, a walk around town, maybe knocking on a few doors, but mostly heading to that neighbor’s house with the annual barbecue the kids adore. No overload of candy; if they’re indulging, it’ll be something special, like the candy from the old shop. In the end, it’s not just about the wishes coming true, it’s about the journey of belief that brings us closer as a family.

Time & Lessons: Virtue In Seeing Life Truly

Each day, countless souls drift through existence, as if time were an endless river, unaware that every ripple is a fleeting gift, their actions suggesting tomorrow is promised, their hearts sometimes lashing out at loved ones in moments of passing frustration, or their minds too preoccupied to whisper words of love to those they cherish.

They cling to the phrase, “You only live once,” and though I feel the pulse of that metaphor, it misses the deeper truth. I know that we live countless lifetimes, each a thread in the stitches of time that is the journey of our eternal soul.

As someone who carries the vivid echoes of my own past lives, I share this truth to awaken others to their timeless journey. Yet, even if they cannot touch those distant memories, so many squander the sacred moments of now, and though life’s demands press heavily, they must gaze through a looking glass of wonder, seeing each heartbeat as a precious chapter in the soul’s eternal story.

My message here, is a cry from the heart, to show the world that every moment is a spark of divinity, urging you to chase the moments you long for, and if they miss you, pursue them anew. If time feels scarce, seek it with determination, grasping even the smallest fragment, for every second is a treasure in this fleeting life.

For me, a soul called to serve, forever sought by those who need my voice, I strive to hold close the connections I’ve forged, reaching out to as many as I can each month, yet my heart aches, knowing I cannot touch every life as deeply as I yearn to. My dream was never to stand apart leading, but to dwell united among those whose spirits I’ve touched through my work, a vibrant community of pure hearts, bound by love, brought together with our families, never alone. I truly dreamed of having that community. I once wrote in here, about my own three paths to fate and that dream was one of them.

My heart has bled to bind souls together, to create a place to live, of unity where love reigns, yet the relentless tide of my work, my ceaseless service to others, has often torn me from those I yearn to hold close, leaving me adrift in the currents of devotion.

I’ve learned to heed the subtle signs, whispered along the sacred timeline of my life, revealing that this dream of togetherness may not unfold as my soul once hoped, and now, standing at this tender juncture, I see a new path unfurling, a divinely crafted path by heaven’s gentle hand.

That’s okay, for I trust the cosmos chooses the way, and we, as humble servants, follow its guidance. At times, shadows rise against us, forces that obscure the light, yet I know there are always other paths, possibilities stretching into the eternal, offering solace when one dream fades, guiding me to a place where my soul finds its footing.

Though that vision of unity was a sacred ache in my heart, I cradle every moment the Divine bestows, even missed opportunities, as treasures that glow within my soul, carried across lifetimes, eternal treasures of grace.

I can still see it, a vision so vivid it pierces my heart, a sanctuary where kindred spirits gather, souls who resonate with my own, hungering for spiritual strength, craving the divine embrace of support. I imagine us together, not centered on one, but bound as one, our families brought together in laughter, sharing feasts of love, our rituals, shared activities like we did online but in person, nurturing life in harmony.

Yet, as I stand in the year 2025, my lips may name the date, but my spirit, a superconsciousness, dances across the realms, channeling souls of varied light and wisdom, losing myself in their essence, forgetting the earthly now.

I am grateful for my journals, my diaries, and the cherished friends who anchor me, sending reminders of the date when I’ve wandered too far.

Time slips like starlight through open hands, and as I gaze upon the world’s shifting tides, I know my path leads to a place where every moment unfolds for a divine purpose. I won’t name which of the three paths I tread, or if it’s a sacred blend, but this journey, from the echoes of past lives to the heartbeat of this moment, is like a mosaic, created with beauty, truth, and eternal love.

Carrying multiple spirits within my vessel, I sometimes ache to enjoy life’s simple joys, for one part of me gazes from a divine summit, seeing truths beyond human grasp, setting me in a world apart, teaching, lecturing, speaking parables of a love so vast it defies earthly understanding.

Another part, childlike, clings to the joy of youth, not in a human sense, but in the eternal essence of spirit, living in heaven’s wisdom, alive with playfulness.

In spiritual teachings, some teach to release attachments, and so I hold none, yet my heart overflows with love, for love is not possession, not ownership, but a sacred river, flowing through virtues like grace and patience, and when it shifts or fades, we must embrace it with unwavering acceptance, our hearts untouched by loss.

Too many take love for granted, chasing romance or friendship to fill their own voids, blind to its selfish roots. Why do they seek companions, friends, or cling to those they cherish? Too often, it’s for what they crave, not what they can give, but true love, divine love, is whole, seeking only to pour out, never to grasp.

In my Tantra course, I guide my students to see love’s true celestial form, a force unlike the fleeting desires of the human heart. On earth, people tremble at change, fear the loss of those they hold dear, but in heaven’s light, we love fiercely, we weep for those we release, yet we let them go, knowing it’s the soul’s sacred path.

When dreams unravel, when paths diverge, humans cast blame on God or themselves, but in the divine, we seek the greater purpose, trusting it serves the eternal good.

People though, they chase selfish desires to feel whole, but to love divinely is to be whole already, to give without seeking, to let love flow like starlight, untouched by need.

I look back on my life, through the echoes of past lives, the lessons of this one, and I embrace past, present, future, as a single, eternal now, my heart yearning to share this wisdom, to guide you to live with a soul ablaze, cherishing every fleeting moment as a divine gift

I’ve come to see this vision may not fully bloom in this life, and as a presence woven into the digital threads of countless lives, I may remain a voice, a light, even after I’ve crossed into the next realm. That’s okay, because these bonds, though often unseen, pulse with eternal truth in my heart, as real as the breath I draw.

It humbles me to stand among women my age, in their 40s, and witness how many have yet to uncover the sacred keys to health, or perhaps have not found the will to embrace them fully. Even I, with all I’ve learned, am not untouched by life’s trials, catching a cold every few years, though it passes swiftly, bearing a few wrinkles, my voice sometimes trembling from endless speaking and teaching. Childbirth has etched its story on my body, leaving hernias from four children and C-sections, and when I look back, my childhood was a crucible of illness, mumps, chickenpox, allergies to dust, an acute sensitivity to sunlight, all intensified by my Rh-negative blood. My mother, without the wisdom or means to heal me, could only watch, and as a child, I had not yet found the tools I now wield to nurture my body and soul.

As I grew, I turned inward, plumbing the depths of existence, and at just 12, I knew my father would leave this world when I would be in my 30s, not from words spoken about his health medically, back at that time, but from the quiet knowing of my psychic gift. I’ve always seen those I would lose, when they would depart, down to the intricate paths of my own life, even glimpsing alternate roads, where futures might shift if destiny veered from my visions, revealing what could unfold in those unwalked paths.

My memories of past lives deepen this knowing, like lanterns illuminating patterns across time, yet each vision was like watching an hourglass, its sand slipping away for every soul and moment.

Still, I held life’s fragile beauty as splendor, cherishing each instant despite the weight of my foresight, and though that knowing broke my heart, it dug gratitude into my very being, it streams in my veins.

Through arguments, disagreements, family trials, I learned that love’s eternal bonds are what endure. You know, there’s a song called, “Forever Young that pierces my soul, don’t we all long to hold time still?

As a child, its melody drew tears, for I felt the fleeting nature of existence, and another song, “Dust in the Wind,” sings the truth of our impermanence. Even with those who stand as enemies, I hold no hatred, no anger, for they are teachers, their presence a mirror for growth, and I seek to understand their hearts, releasing bitterness. I don’t waste breath on arguments unless rooted in unshakable conviction, always speaking with loving truth, knowing when to step away, yet always returning to offer love, not resentment. I stand firm, never letting others trample my spirit, yet my heart remains open, helping others, never abandoning them, discerning the balance between perseverance and endurance, shielding myself from toxicity or abuse.

If I must protect others, standing in the storm to shield them, I never regret my sacrifice, but I guard against losing myself in their struggles.

Looking back, through the lessons, the souls I’ve loved, those I’ve lost, those still near, my vision remains steadfast, we must cradle every moment as sacred, in this life and all others.

Gaze upon your moments with tenderness, even the mistakes, learning to laugh at them, drawing wisdom from every encounter, even with yourself. See life as a movie you’ve lived, its highlights glowing across every genre, pushing aside insecurity to embrace your quirks, your beautiful strangeness, for I believe we’re all a little wild, a little wondrously odd.

Speak to others from the heart, never with scorn, meeting them where they stand, knowing each soul hears your words through their own lens, and in this, you’ll find meaning in every breath you take. If you can’t prioritize what matters most in every moment, seize even a fleeting microsecond before it slips away. Live, don’t linger in the shadow of death, live with a heart ablaze, knowing this life is but a chapter, embracing its impermanence with joy, for stories rise and fall, and through them, countless chapters unfold, even in the afterlife, this is the eternal way of things.

I strive to nurture my health, to linger in this life as long as I can, yet I know a day will come when I’ll step beyond, and that truth echoes as it did in my youth, awaiting the futures I’ve seen. Only, my own.

I look at pictures of myself and think, “You shine on the outside, you’re holding strong within,” but time remains the silent guide, taking us through this life’s chapters into the next.

Advice from the Heart:

Chase the moments that set your soul alight, and if they slip beyond your grasp, create them anew with the fire of your spirit, seeking even the smallest fragment of time, for each breath is a sacred spark in your eternal flame. Know this life is but one verse in the soul’s unending song, and even if past lives remain veiled, live each day as a holy pilgrimage, gazing through a looking glass of awe, where every moment pulses with divine intent.

Tend to your body and spirit as sacred vessels, forgiving the stumbles, for each gentle step toward wholeness echoes through eternity, binding this life to the next.

In sorrow or loss, seek the truth of life’s dance, for gratitude transforms pain into wisdom, anchoring you in the eternal across all lifetimes. When paths diverge, trust the divine hand that guides them, for heaven places every moment for a purpose, and even missed chances are treasures, carried in your soul’s embrace.

If shadows rise against you, seek the alternate paths, plans of possibility, knowing the Divine always offers a way forward, guiding you to where your heart belongs.

Live not as one tethered to earthly need, but as a soul radiant with divine love, giving without grasping, letting go with grace, for true love is a river that flows without end, untouched by loss. Embrace the multiple spirits within you, whether you see from a divine summit or dance with childlike joy, for each perspective is a gift, a lens to see the eternal.

Teach others, as I do, to seek love’s celestial form, to release the fear of change, to let go without clinging, knowing that every soul’s journey is sacred, even when it leads away.

Live with a heart wide open, ablaze with the ferocity of the stars, cherishing every moment as a divine gift, for though time may fade in this life, the love you carry echoes through every lifetime, an eternal song of grace.

With those who oppose you, release anger, seeing them as sacred teachers, their presence a mirror for your growth, speaking with loving truth, stepping away when needed, yet always returning with a heart full of love, not bitterness. Stand unshaken in your truth, never yielding to those who would diminish you, yet keep your heart open, helping others, never forsaking them, while guarding against the poison of toxicity, knowing the difference between enduring and persevering.

Look back on every moment, even missteps, with a tender smile, laughing at your own stumbles, drawing wisdom from each encounter, seeing life as a cinema, its highlights vivid in every genre, embracing your unique, wondrous oddity, for we are all beautifully strange. Speak to every soul from your heart’s depths, never with judgment, meeting them where they stand, for each perceives through their own sacred lens, and in this, you’ll uncover the meaning spoken into every breath.

Trust the quiet knowing within, and if you carry past lives’ memories, as I do, let them guide others to their own truth, but if those memories remain hidden, know your soul is still writing its eternal story, and every moment is a chance to awaken.

A New Series: End of The Year Fun!

“Experience the ‘End of The Angelic Year: 2025’ with a new video series and festivities, illustrated by angels surrounding the globe, symbolizing peace and unity.”

As the autumn equinox bathes the world in balance on September 21, 2025, my heart is just singing with anticipation for the end-of-year celebrations! As some of my long time students know, this time stretches from this sacred moment through the end of November.

This season, rich with global holidays and spiritual depth, is a time of joy, connection, and transformation, not just in my own beliefs but in the vibrant traditions of cultures worldwide. From Samhain and Halloween to India’s Gandhi Jayanti, Maha Navami, and Dussehra/Vijayadashami, and extending to festivals like Diwali, and beyond, this period is a great time to embrace the spirit, celebrate together, and honor diverse backgrounds.

God is Elohim, meaning many different spirits together as one, as are we.

Through crafts, get-togethers (whether in person or from afar), my annual celebration which I’ve called Grianstad from the beginning, I invite everyone to join me in this magical season, exploring my YouTube video series, new lessons in my courses, and fun activities on my Facebook and Instagram. But for now on, I’ll just call this time of year, Equinox Collective Season, as directed by geacen since Grianstad is a strong word, though true.

Let’s make every moment count as we celebrate the spiritual end of the year!

A Season of Global Celebrations

The autumn equinox marks the start of a season when the veil between worlds thins, we just naturally the air is open with spirit and the divine and we can vibe with each other through the collective ties we share in this web.

Here are some of the holidays and celebrations from September 21 to November 30, 2025, that fill this time with meaning, all in which I blend in my ongoing three month celebrations.

  • Autumn Equinox (Mabon, September 21-23): A time of gratitude and balance in celebrated with feasts of seasonal harvests, apple-based crafts, and altars adorned with leaves and pumpkins. Wine tasting, “responsibly”. Apple cider making.
  • Jewsish Sacred Days
    Jewish holidays from September to November span Tishrei and Cheshvan, featuring the High Holy Days and fall festivals. Rosh Hashanah (Sep 22–24) starts the Jewish year 5786 with shofar blasts and sweet foods like apples and honey. Yom Kippur (Sep 30–Oct 1) is a solemn day of fasting and repentance. Sukkot (Oct 6–13) celebrates the harvest with sukkahs and the Four Species, followed by Shemini Atzeret (Oct 13–14) and Simchat Torah (Oct 14–15), marking the Torah reading cycle’s end and restart with dancing.
  • Gandhi Jayanti (October 2, India): A national holiday honoring Mahatma Gandhi’s non-violent legacy, inspiring peace and unity. I honor what he stood for, which was similar to my own feelings. Gandhi’s philosophy, was about “truth-force” or “soul-force,” and a method of nonviolent resistance rooted in the power of truth and moral courage. Confront injustice without resorting to violence, which is what we sometimes need to do, especially today.
  • Maha Navami and Dussehra/Vijayadashami (October 1-3, India): These Hindu festivals celebrate Goddess Durga’s triumph over evil and Lord Rama’s victory over Ravana symbollically. Candles or lanterns light up the night, symbolizing good prevailing.
  • Samhain (October 31-November 1): A Celtic festival honoring ancestors, with candlelit altars, divination, and rituals to connect with the spirit world. It’s a deeply spiritual moment for me, reflecting on life’s cycles.
  • Halloween (October 31): A playful celebration of transformation, with costumes, jack-o’-lantern carving, and trick-or-treating, inviting us to embrace wonder and mystery. Here I only dress up as an angel to represent my soul or some other type of costume that reflects some part of who I am, not so much as any kind of other character. I might even try to add a witchy hat just because I’m into mysticism or something like that. I think you understand. The kids, well I let them be who they choose with guidance of course, for fun until they’re older to understand  how I see it in perspective rather than how they learn about it from other kids in school. I am teaching them now already, though. 
  • Diwali (October 20-21, tentative): India’s Festival of Lights celebrates light over darkness with oil lamps (diyas), fireworks, sweets, I celebrate and pray for world joy. I usually get some small fireworks.
  • Thanksgiving: I usually incorporate Thanksgiving all throughout all of the above holidays as I feel that it is a time of giving thanks. I don’t celebrate Thanksgiving itself per se, but I do celebrate throughout this time of blended holidays, giving gratitude. Everyone knows that I don’t really agree with Thanksgiving because of what it really represented under the surface, but it doesn’t mean we can’t incorporate giving things throughout this time of year, just not on that specific day.  For this time, I usually cook nice meals, make mocktails, as we do arts and crafts and celebrate the other celebrations. We share and express gratitude, reflecting on abundance, often with crafts like handmade centerpieces or gratitude journals.
  • Day of the Dead (Día de los Muertos, November 1-2, Mexico): A vibrant honoring of deceased loved ones with altars (ofrendas), marigold decorations, and sugar skull crafts, blending joy and remembrance. Yes, we include this too, only in our own way, adding making a meal, and having spaces at the table for the people that we have lost, incorporating some of their belongings there to remember them. We usually visit their places of burial if possible, brining beautiful mums, autumn flowers, nuts and fruits.

Grianstad: My Celebration of Unity and Spirit

Grianstad is my way of honoring the sacred energy of this season, bringing together global holidays for a longer time for joy, reflection, and connection after working hard, fighting through responsibilities and trying to manifest goals. it’s about studying all of the spiritual books, my own channeled truths that I have shared to add to them and discern them correctly, while taking part in these spiritual physical activities align mind, body and spirit, during a time when the angels say that our year is coming to a perfect close. 

It’s about celebrating the thinning veil, the triumph of light, and the beauty of every culture and background. Whether we’re gathering in person or connecting from afar, Grianstad is a time to learn, create, and make every moment count. And it truly is, the accurate end of the spiritual year.

I love incorporating crafts and get-togethers into Grianstad. Picture carving pumpkins for Halloween, crafting rangoli designs in my own style for Diwali, or creating gratitude wreaths. Spiritual studies are deep, meditation, and other activities that I find or like meditation says he’s dancing, music making, sitting with crafts, being out in nature, are all wonderful for this beautiful season. Even sharing spiritual experiences from the other side, whether good or bad, can help in honoring spirit too. 

These activities really do bridge cultures. As we were truly meant to do, being a collective, combining the truth that was divided. Whether it’s a cozy in-person gathering or a virtual craft-along, we can celebrate together, embracing the diversity that makes this season so rich.

I’ll be sharing craft ideas and activities on my Facebook and Instagram, so join me there to get creative and inspired!

Join Me on This Spiritual Adventure

This season is a call to come together, no matter your culture or beliefs, to find motivation in the shared pulse of these spiritual holidays. My new YouTube video series will go beyond the spiritual veil, exploring a variety of experiences.

The first video leans into the spooky side, perfect for the thinning veil of Samhain and Halloween, but the series will span diverse spiritual themes, from mystical encounters to universal truths.

Using pictures I’ve created, I’ll share visuals of my spiritual journey and the backstories behind them, bringing you into the things I’ve seen.

There’s so much to talk about, and I hope you’ll join me on this adventure as we explore the deeper truths of this season. I may even go LIVE this season, no matter what Im doing or where Im at, to share thoughts and deeper philosophies from heaven.

My courses and development programs are also blossoming with brand-new lessons, filled with tools to cultivate your spiritual growth. These programs offer practices to deepen your connection to the divine, and its a great time to learn, especially because the veil is thinner and you’re more open.

I’m thrilled to share this journey with you, and I hope many of you will join in to explore, learn, and grow.

Embracing All Cultures, Together

This season are about unity, bringing people of every background together to celebrate, learn, and enjoy life. Whether you’re lighting a Diwali lamp, honoring ancestors on Samhain, or sharing a meal, these holidays under the “Angelic End Of Year” period, showing that spirituality is a shared human experience.

May this beautiful time inspire us all to connect, create, and embrace the spirit of the season.

Check out my YouTube channel for videos that reveal the spiritual magic, or join my courses for blossoming insights, and let’s celebrate this time together, honoring the light, love, and diversity that make this time of year so extraordinary!

Tantra & The Bible: Courses & Intimate Information

Alura Cein, tantra, Illumination, bible decoding, spiritual truth, twin flames,

Good morning, everyone! Happy Saturday (June 28, 2025)!

Yet, another diary entry here at “Spiritually Awkward”!😁👍

I will also post this publicly on my official website too. Originally, I had intended to do a Vlog about this very quickly or to even simply type it in a post, but neither of those options would have given me enough time to say what I really want to say. I’m not sure how many people are truly really paying attention anymore, but this is my safe place online where I speak my heart and thoughts. Those who truly follow, will have read this and know what’s going on.

Regarding my last post, I am doing well. For those of you that may have viewed my Instagram or Facebook, I had a little accident. I fell and had a concussion, carrying a tray in from the kids little toddler, swimming pool, just the other day. I realized how beautiful that moment was (although on the surface it was upsetting and at first, painful), and I thought it was important to share my feelings about it. Especially… after I had gotten insights from the angel Jeremiel who consoled me later on, and spoke to me on how life tends to try to knock people down, but in actuality, it really does strengthen us instead. He’s right, it does, doesn’t it?

As you all know, I can obviously heal myself, and I’m OK. However, I’m not currently accepting messages because I’m busy working. Especially on the courses. There’s a lot of deep, heavy information involved, and I want to give it my full focus.

I also want to share that, over the past week or so, I added a new lesson to the Bible course, and there will be another one coming after this weekend. Many of you know I’ve spoken about this being a lifelong journey, so I hope you don’t mind taking things slowly. The information is very profound, and I want to ensure I’m explaining everything clearly. I don’t research, I don’t pre-plan, I actually channel the information. 

Afterwards, I put a lot of care into editing it with Grammarly to make sure it’s done properly and honorably before sharing it. Most of my courses are dedicated to the Lord because it’s His knowledge I’m sharing. I especially dedicate the “Bible Untold” course to Him because I know He’s the one who has taught me everything I know.

A New Testament 

This Bible course is essentially a new Bible, something inspired by my dear friend Bella, who once told me I should have my own Bible, one written by me. I’m not claiming to be some great God or prophet. I do have prophetic gifts, and I am an Oracle, but I am humble, and I only have ever called myself a mere messenger. Although at times I have referred to myself as a genie. But that’s OK too 🤣. In all, I really am just a humble mouthpiece, here to bring wisdom, miracles, and gifts to those that seek them and believe in them. That’s all. Therefore, I don’t really wanna call it a Bible, but we’ll just use that term for now metaphorically until I can find a better word to call it.

Nevertheless, I created one. The Bible course and another, will both come together to complete it. It’s not for sale or commercial use as of now. In fact, it’s not even done yet! I have another section to add, I’ll explain more in a moment.

The new “Bible” of sorts, will simply be for my people, and any later seekers. My daughter will someday publish it. The goal is for it to be a personal, sacred book, something to hold onto later, long after I’m gone from this earth (when the good Lord has it planned for me), so that when the website classes are no longer managed, everyone can still have a copy. 

Obviously, when I am no longer on this earth, nobody will be able to keep the websites up and running for me. 

In addition, the tantra course complements this work. When I teach about the true meaning behind the Bible and those hidden truths, the tantra course will guide you on how to truly and genuinely connect with God, live in harmony with His will, and discover your most authentic twin flame soulmate. Not only this, but it’ll bring greater understanding of what those things actually mean. These are deep, profound topics, and everything will be compiled into one set. Again, this isn’t for public sale; it’s meant to be kept as a sacred, personal resource, something heaven ordained long ago. 

That said, I will be removing some students. Over the years, I’ve sensed that certain individuals have had bad intentions, or they simply haven’t taken my teachings seriously. There are also those who have abandoned the lessons or lack enough respect to complete even a simple homework assignment that comes with the course. I’ve never asked for homework from any of my courses—except this one.

A Quick Rant

I’m about to go off here, in a loving way.

I want to share here, as I did on Facebook: the Bible course is my heart and soul. I know some people might see me as strange or think I’m mentally unwell because I say I talk to God, but if they just did their research into the predictions I’ve made over the years, they would see that everything I’ve spoken has come true. I’m not here to convince anyone, I’m simply validating that I’ve never tried to lead anyone astray. I’m not a quack.

I’m just a humble messenger, not claiming to be an alien or God. I’m here to deliver insights from above for those who want to explore deeper truths about themselves, about God, and about existence. I didn’t learn all of this from books alone, although I have read the Bible, the Bhagavad Gita, the Vedas, and the Quran. Through my conversations and communication with the Lord throughout my life, He has revealed profound truths to me, about individuals, about the world, and about the deeper meanings of things. My out of body travels, pre-earth knowledge, past life experiences, astral wanderings, and communications with an unnumbered amount of beings from all realms and planes, has educated me also. For this, I’m beyond blessed in this universe. And humbled on this small speck in it, to share it with others here on earth.

My intention was always to humbly share what I’ve received and to support my family financially, nothing more. I’ve never sought fame or wealth. Consider this: look at all the people talking about spirituality, tarot, or preaching Christianity, they often have millions of views because it aligns with certain agendas. I’ve always known my information was far too deep to fit into the mainstream narrative.

There are even people out there discussing aliens and star seeds to get more views, yet they often aren’t speaking genuine truth. They mix some truths with delusions, and the system allows their content because it’s entertaining, even if it’s misleading or false. Some are very convincing, playing along with propaganda, while others are simply irrelevant, bypassed by the system. That’s not a judgment, just an observation.

In all honesty, I’ve seen a lot of content out there, and I recognize that much of it is driven by agendas. I’ve always known I would face suppression. I’ve only ever tried to grow gradually, running a few ads here and there, because it was never about gaining recognition.

It’s hurt me that my teachings haven’t reached as many people as I’d hoped, but I’m truly grateful for those I have reached. I would love to connect with more, humbly, if it’s the Lord’s will. If not, I accept that too.

I may have mentioned this before, but if I had met someone with the knowledge I possess and the ability to foresee the future, watching it all unfold exactly as I predicted, I believe I would have felt a deep sense of loyalty and respect for that person. Not in a cold or distant way, but with genuine honor and admiration. And I don’t say that in a way of being an ego. I just say that out of having confidence and respect for my relationship with God, and what he taught me. Take it, or leave it.

Many of the people who have been part of my courses have shown me a lot of love and respect, and for that, I am truly grateful. Through them, I’ve found true friends. Some know me beyond the internet, they see that I’m a bit quirky and silly, not just a stern spiritual teacher. That playful, lighthearted side is often how heaven channels through me. Otherwise, I’m very childlike and affectionate.

Sometimes, I think this innocence and love can be confusing for others. My genuine, heartfelt nature might come across the wrong way at times. But above all, my relationship with God is everything to me, and I want others who are truly seeking Him to experience that same connection. I don’t want any of this to become a competition over who knows more or who can gather more followers.

Sadly, some people have tried to make it seem like their divine purpose is to deliver spiritual truths, but I believe everyone has their own purpose. Sharing some of what they’ve learned may very well be a part of that purpose, but it shouldn’t be used to overshadow or misrepresent mine. 

My goal is simply to serve, humbly and sincerely, without trying to claim ownership over divine knowledge or spiritual insight but to ensure it’s not misrepresented or falling into the wrong hands.

Please know I hold no anger or resentment, I love all of you from the bottom of my heart. I have been so passive already. Now, I have to place some firmness in this respect. The truth is, I’m not a joke, and my work isn’t about money. 

My primary purpose is to serve out of love for God and to genuinely help others. I have enough respect for my relationship with Him and my teachings to know when it’s necessary to let certain people go. This doesn’t mean our friendship ends, though they may be upset with me, but I won’t allow my information to be exploited by fake gurus trying to imitate and add falsely to what I’ve shared.

That’s why I’m working on putting these courses into written form. 

Back To The Courses

For the Tantra Course, I’ll  also include an audio to accompany the lessons so that students can read along if they prefer, along with a hard copy. This is a very important project for me, and I need to focus on completing it. 

While I’m still working on other services, my priority is finishing these courses. I’m not intentionally dragging things out; I believe in giving people time, space to catch up, revisit lessons, and compare what they’ve learned with the new Bible course. True students understand that this is a journey that takes time. Studying is deep.

In truth, this isn’t some college curriculum or content factory. It’s a mystery school, and I want to ensure everything is accurate and sacred. 

These days, many claim to speak to God or prophesy, but I know in my heart that, while I may not be the only gifted person, many of those now jumping on the prophetic Christian bandwagon weren’t saying half of what I’ve shared over the years. I’m not trying to be rude, these are just facts. I’m simply protecting myself because I take this work seriously. If it had ever been about fame, I wouldn’t care, yet my focus remains on serving God and the truth. 

With all of that being said, I’d like to include an excerpt from the tantra course and share what will be covered in the next lesson. It’s quite interesting, and I think you’ll find it valuable.

Tantra- Next Lesson

“Tantra is about maintaining awareness that all parts of yourself are interconnected and functioning together. This idea ties into what I discussed in my previous course, Lightology, where I emphasized the importance of balance. Let me refresh your memory, or if you haven’t taken that course, I’ll briefly introduce the concept so everyone can become familiar with it.

First and foremost, balance is the foundation of everything. Without it, chaos inevitably takes over. Any genuine spiritual teacher will teach the importance of balance, and they must live by it themselves. No matter how much chaos may be happening in their external life or around them, their inner self must remain centered and balanced. This inner harmony allows them to work effectively amidst chaos and to stop its influence from taking over.

The reason I often share my struggles with negativity and the challenges I face isn’t for sympathy; it’s to show that I, like anyone else, encounter real situations. However, as a wise person, I’ve learned how to handle them without letting them tear me down or affect my inner peace.

As an Oracle, I am deeply attuned to all vibrations around me. I can sense energy in everything and everyone, if someone is nervous, I feel that nervousness; if they’re hungry, I sense their hunger; if they’re feeling depressed, I experience that depression. Many people who are highly sensitive or empathy often absorb these vibrations as if they are their own, which can be overwhelming.

The difference between them and me, is that I am aware that these feelings are not mine. I can trace with visions and channeling, further into where they’re coming from, and gain an understanding why, what happened in the past or present, and what may unfold in the future. Because of this, I can offer truthful insights to help others, even from afar. I know exactly what’s happening in their lives.

While an empath might simply pick up on the vibrations of those around them, I do more than that, I receive visions and impressions that come from beyond this world. This connection is extraordinary and intense, making it difficult to maintain a sense of balance when so much is happening simultaneously. On top of that, I face physical situations and external chaos.

Achieving total balance in such chaos can sometimes seem impossible, even for me. But if I, with all my sensitivity and abilities, can find inner harmony amid the turmoil, then so can you. That’s why I share my experiences. I believe that if I can manage to maintain inner peace despite absorbing so much imbalance from the world, my environment, and my personal life, there is a deeper reason behind it.

It all comes down to the knowledge and understanding of God, and my true twin flame. I’ll explain my previous experience with relationships and their meaning, and go into intimate details. After finding your truest twin flame, you will be able to connect deeply with God even more. 

That connection allows you to sustain balance and clarity despite the chaos. 

Although, for me… my true soul mate may not be who many think, In the next lesson, I’ll share unknown things about my life and reveal not only secret personal truths, but existential truths that will relate to you also. It may shock you!🤫

The course will go into that and who mine truly is, and explains things in an eye opening way about friendships, relationships, God, sacrifice, purity, humbleness, generosity and virtue. Enlightenment!

You may not understand now, but I assure you that Tantra will help you to make sense of it all. This will bring students the sum of understanding for themselves. I know that for many people, it will make sense of a lot of different things, including me, as well as my teachings, and things that I have said and done. It will also bring clarity for your journey, your ultimate soulmate, and bring conclusion to how to operate in this matrix just a little above it, according to heavenly teachings.

Returning to the idea of balance, in my previous courses, I explained how crucial it is to have all aspects of your life in order. When one area is out of sync, it acts like a magnet, drawing energy and focus away from other areas. This creates what I call a “drain,” because the parts of your life that demand more attention and energy will take away from areas where you have less. Over time, these draining areas lead to chaos and imbalance.

In my Indignation course, I described darkness as being like a vacuum, something that constantly pulls and consumes. Darkness and evil are different; darkness itself is simply a vacuum, a magnet that seeks to fill itself. This is where it can turn into something destructive or evil. People who feel the need to continuously fill themselves with something, anything that temporarily makes them feel good, are often trying to fill a void within.

Life works the same way. 

When you’re empty inside, you become chaotic and try to fill that emptiness with anything available. 

Unfortunately, most of these temporary fixes are not permanent solutions. That’s why many people are so unhappy, they keep jumping from one distraction to another instead of seeking the one thing they truly need: wholeness.

True balance and fulfillment come from God and your twin flame, and when you achieve finding one, you can eventually connect to the other. After that, everything else falls into place”.

To be continued…

Conclusion

This week has been a wild one, but everything fell into place with the angelic message I received after hitting my head and experiencing a concussion. It all comes back to balance. 

When I shared about what happened, and over the years, many other challenges I have faced, I know that some people misunderstood the deeper message behind those posts. I’m not trying to portray my life as perfect. My intention is to teach a profound truth that goes beyond the challenges I face. This understanding is crucial for awakening, if  anyone is truly committed to that journey.

It’s important to remember that struggles and experiences serve a higher purpose, they’re part of the process of awakening and growth. That’s why I share them with everyone online, not for sympathy, but to reveal the deeper lessons that lie beneath the surface.and being calm, is another huge part of it. 

I’m looking forward to the new lessons up ahead. I can’t wait to teach people how to find their true twin flame, to reveal who my truest divine connection is, and show people how to connect with God. Plus, some things in between like nirvana, and prana. It’s all about ascension!

The wisdom is unparalleled.

For now, I just wanted to give everybody these updates and to let everyone know that I am OK. I’m just going to be a little busy working, and I’m always here for all of you if not through communications, through constant prayer and channeling that I do to check in with many of you, even in spirit. 

If you are expecting any soul development or life coaching, I will have you set up at the end of this month as promised in my Facebook post. I truly appreciate you all. With all of my heart I love each and every one of you. If you do you happen to be one of the people ejected from my course, please hopefully forgive me with this true guidance and insight. And please know that I’ll still be posting things throughout the week, but otherwise I will not have a phone on me or any other devices around too much, so that I can focus on getting the lessons completed, that I need for the courses, being how important they truly are in more ways than one. 

The next course for Tantra will be sometime over the weekend. And again, in the Bible course will come sometime after the weekend.

That’s all! Get your lives ready to forge forward with knowledge and truth. Your twin flame and lifting your sights beyond the matrix await you Tantra students! Bible students, the Bible Untold will lead you there! I truly hope that Bible students will join the Tantra course. If not, that’s OK too. I feel as though, that for anyone that joins, that it was meant for them. Even if I’m only left with one or two people. With that, at least I know that the Lord has chosen and selected those that he feels are going to use the information for the right things in a genuine and sincere way. And therefore, I’ve done my job in the world of helping many people, but also going further as to have even enlightened just a few. Namaste!

Let’s study truth!